Oh my god
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Oh my god
I just checked how much I drank last night. It was a liter of vodka...A LITER. I can't believe i drank that much in like 2-3 hours. I am full of so much guilt and sadness right now. I can't believe I do this to my body. How have I not shut down? Am I going to be ok if I never drink again? Is it too late for me?
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As long as you are breathing, it's never too late. However, if you make a habit of drinking that much on a regular basis, I would suggest you see your doctor about it. He/she may be able to give you some medication to help you through the withdrawals.
Don't ever feel like you have gone too far. There is always hope.
Don't ever feel like you have gone too far. There is always hope.
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My last relapse and final night was a mix of booze and pills. It still scares me to death I was so out of control and cheated death.
There's two kinds of guilt: healthy and unhealthy. I was stuck in a vicious cycle of binging, feeling guilty, but then drinking to alleviate said guilt. That's unhealthy guilt. Healthy guilt is feeling bad about a mistake, but learning from it, and moving forward. Easier said then done, but it's a better alternative to the cycle. I wish you well and hope you find a balance.
There's two kinds of guilt: healthy and unhealthy. I was stuck in a vicious cycle of binging, feeling guilty, but then drinking to alleviate said guilt. That's unhealthy guilt. Healthy guilt is feeling bad about a mistake, but learning from it, and moving forward. Easier said then done, but it's a better alternative to the cycle. I wish you well and hope you find a balance.
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What is it about vodka? I used to drink, way to much. When I switched from beer an bourbon to vodka it got way out of control. A liter in a night was not unusual at all in fact it was very normal. Then again my life's situation had taken a turn for the worse at this point too.
You've been wrestling with this for quite a while. Aren't you getting tired of it? You know it will kill you eventually if you keep going like this. If you let yourself think rationally for a bit the choice really plain to see. Either take the seemingly easy path and die in a drunken stupor or gain some self love and respect and scratch and claw your way out of this prison you've locked yourself in. It's so much more peaceful and free out here on the other side. Why not get serious and give it a go? It's not going to be easy but nothing worth while in life is.
You've been wrestling with this for quite a while. Aren't you getting tired of it? You know it will kill you eventually if you keep going like this. If you let yourself think rationally for a bit the choice really plain to see. Either take the seemingly easy path and die in a drunken stupor or gain some self love and respect and scratch and claw your way out of this prison you've locked yourself in. It's so much more peaceful and free out here on the other side. Why not get serious and give it a go? It's not going to be easy but nothing worth while in life is.
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We can always draw a line in the sand and say no more, the past is the past, but the future remains unwritten!!
More support and camping out here on SR for a bit might be a plan Scared.
Take small steps, one day at a time!!
More support and camping out here on SR for a bit might be a plan Scared.
Take small steps, one day at a time!!
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Good luck Scared. I hope you get through it. Someone on this thread mentioned meds from the dr for treatment..Does anyone know anything about this? As I didn't know there was anything to take that may control the cravings? I don't mean to hijack your thread btw just thinking of what might help.
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Originally Posted by doggonecarl 
How did you go from this:
"I will promise to stick around and post. I will take all of your guys advice to heart and keep fighting. "
To a liter of vodka?
"I will promise to stick around and post. I will take all of your guys advice to heart and keep fighting. "
To a liter of vodka?
Scared, I know how you feel. I've had days where I'm determined to stick to a plan in the morning, but find myself drinking again by 6 that very evening. I know how easy it is to rationalize that "one more time" won't be a problem. You have friends here who will encourage to you to keep fighting. There are very few among us who have never relapsed.
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Originally Posted by Scared1234
I just checked how much I drank last night. It was a liter of vodka...A LITER. I can't believe i drank that much in like 2-3 hours. I am full of so much guilt and sadness right now. I can't believe I do this to my body. How have I not shut down? Am I going to be ok if I never drink again? Is it too late for me?
I've woken up to find nearly a gallon of empty vodka bottles....
Now I'm nearly a year and a half sober.
It's not too late, and the best time to begin embracing sobriety is RIGHT NOW.
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