ulfr

there are demons here faces all distorted some demons dogs too i cant see the angels anymore
i think they killed them or i killed them because i didnt believe in Jesus i looked at other faiths
i have my headphones on trying to ignore them
they want to see me bleed maybe i need to not self injured in a month no tools here but there nothing stopping me using a knife when my husband isnt looking
there screaming at me they want my soul there are soul eaters maybe am one too
I want money ...i cant have money my husband keeps it all i cant go and buy ■■■■ that i want to use
drugs , drink, ■■■■ yes drugs ...maybe i should go and read some AA books might help but i feel like i need to rebel
dont want to sleep at the moment scared to

Gilmer

Keep fighting. They aren't actually true. They can't harm you--only you can harm you by listening to them. Jesus isn't punishing you. He loves you. You are precious to him.

Your husband is protecting you and loving you by keeping control of the money.

ulfr

i think am going to bed
my husband says am not well
i think i need to see a dr asap

Anna

That might be a good idea.

I hope you feel better.

Soberwolf

(((Phoenix))) Hopefully you can see a Dr tomorrow listen to your husband hes a good man

Hang in there Phoenix

ulfr

dont know what am doing ? dont know whats real anymore

going to read some of the big book then bed took my medication tonight sometimes it dont work

Carlotta

Go to bed and try to get some rest. Tomorrow, you ll go to the doctor.
Sending prayers and strength your way

We are here for you

Thepatman

So sorry you are in such a rough spot. Please make sure to take your Meds as prescribed.

SoberLeigh

The demons and the voices aren't real. Trust your husband; he is real and is looking after you. Take your meds and head off to sleep, TPF.

ulfr

Managed to sleep ok
i cant see my dr until tomorrow at 10.30 pm
just woke up my husband is still in bed think we are going food shopping
still to take my morning meds
had breakfast its beautiful outside its sunny
i think my husband is doing the garden today as well
i cant go outside when he does that because of my asthma
...i feel ok at the moment

SnoozyQ

I'm glad you feel ok Phoenix

Make sure you explain to your doctor the feelings and thoughts you have expressed to us .
Get lots of sleep & know we are just a text away .

Hugs xxxx

BernieE

Glad you're feeling ok today. I hope you can get outside a bit and soak up some sunshine!

Mountainmanbob

If we open the door, demons can take a hold. Seems that contact with a preacher or church elder would be of much help for you. If you need to talk with one on the phone pm me.
Bob

Dee74

Have you got an appointment today Phoenix?

D

ulfr

Tomorrow i have one ...i can wait until tomorrow ... my husband just woke up so i can have my meds
got an AA meeting tonight looking forward to it
i can call crisis team if things get bad
the appointment is first thing in the morning

Dee74

I really hope you'll have a better day today

Ruby2

Hi Phoenix. Just saw your post. I hope your day gets better. Good luck with the Dr. visit.

Soberwolf

Hope you have a better day Phoenix

SoberLeigh

Glad to hear that you are feeling better, Phoenix.

JT0626

Let us know how your doctor appointment went. Thinking of you & sending you good vibes.