Again the 1st day
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Again the 1st day
Hi,
I am Kris from Poland.
Last Tuesday I relapsed after 45 sober days. It was the longest period of staying sober since May last year when I relapsed after 154 days...
Today I decided to stop after 5 days of drinking in a row.
So again the first day... Feeling quite well and decided not to cry over 45 lovely days interrupted by my sick desire because I decide to learn a lesson. I will appreciate your support because i somehow believe that I can make it and want to enjoy every sober minute of my life – not alone, but with people in a distant country/ies but still so close for the experience we share .
Now the major issue is to go relatively smoothly through withdrawals but from my previous experience, after quite a long sobriety period I am not expecting to suffer too much with the exception of some insomnia in the upcoming night or two and a moderate level of anxiety .
I must say this is a great site! I spent large part of the day reading the stories (as if there were mine). Happy I’ve joined!
I am Kris from Poland.
Last Tuesday I relapsed after 45 sober days. It was the longest period of staying sober since May last year when I relapsed after 154 days...
Today I decided to stop after 5 days of drinking in a row.
So again the first day... Feeling quite well and decided not to cry over 45 lovely days interrupted by my sick desire because I decide to learn a lesson. I will appreciate your support because i somehow believe that I can make it and want to enjoy every sober minute of my life – not alone, but with people in a distant country/ies but still so close for the experience we share .
Now the major issue is to go relatively smoothly through withdrawals but from my previous experience, after quite a long sobriety period I am not expecting to suffer too much with the exception of some insomnia in the upcoming night or two and a moderate level of anxiety .
I must say this is a great site! I spent large part of the day reading the stories (as if there were mine). Happy I’ve joined!
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Day 2: sober
Thank you all for the warm reception.
Half-slept the previous night but now I feel quite well. I could concentrate pretty well on my work during the day. Drink a lot of water, fresh orange juice, appetite is ok, no bowel disturbances. I am quite optimistic for the night and day to come.
Have been given some thoughts during the day about this inner evil force (or voice) that told me to erase the bad memories associated with alcohol and helped expose the good ones that in the end led me to break the chain of 45 sober days this year, more than 150 days last year about 120 days in 2013.
Why is it so overwhelming? It seems like it is a kind of 'smart' force that knows that bad alcohol-related memories are inversely proportional with time and I know it will emerge in due time and strike again. I do knot know when - 10 days, 40 days, 120 days- but it will.
I know too that I may be too weak again to respond. And this is my concern.
Thank you all for the warm reception.
Half-slept the previous night but now I feel quite well. I could concentrate pretty well on my work during the day. Drink a lot of water, fresh orange juice, appetite is ok, no bowel disturbances. I am quite optimistic for the night and day to come.
Have been given some thoughts during the day about this inner evil force (or voice) that told me to erase the bad memories associated with alcohol and helped expose the good ones that in the end led me to break the chain of 45 sober days this year, more than 150 days last year about 120 days in 2013.
Why is it so overwhelming? It seems like it is a kind of 'smart' force that knows that bad alcohol-related memories are inversely proportional with time and I know it will emerge in due time and strike again. I do knot know when - 10 days, 40 days, 120 days- but it will.
I know too that I may be too weak again to respond. And this is my concern.
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Day 3: sober
The world outside is becoming more Spring-like with still low temperatures but I noticed growing buds on the shrubs. Today I also heard the first chaffinch this year.
I am tired because did not get much sleep two previous nights but I feel my sleeping pattern is coming back to normal. Just had a 30 minute afternoon nap (something impossible yesterday or the day before) and it was great and without accompanying anxiety.
No cravings so far.
I am going to take a shower, iron my shirt for tomorrow and work a little bit on my computer. Before I go to bed I will read a book I started yesterday. Watch some CNN to stay in touch with spoken English.
Isn' it beautiful? Yes it is.
The world outside is becoming more Spring-like with still low temperatures but I noticed growing buds on the shrubs. Today I also heard the first chaffinch this year.
I am tired because did not get much sleep two previous nights but I feel my sleeping pattern is coming back to normal. Just had a 30 minute afternoon nap (something impossible yesterday or the day before) and it was great and without accompanying anxiety.
No cravings so far.
I am going to take a shower, iron my shirt for tomorrow and work a little bit on my computer. Before I go to bed I will read a book I started yesterday. Watch some CNN to stay in touch with spoken English.
Isn' it beautiful? Yes it is.
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