EricinPA

I find myself in a position where I am being called out for something I absolutley did and trying to talk my way out of it. Thats old me behavior and im trying to explain it away but if i really get honest with myself I know I did it and am due for the punishment that im trying to wiggle out of. Honesty has always been a problem for me so when i do something dishonest and demand to be taken as if it was honest can i really expect them not to question my motives? Ive done so much wreckage that not being trusted isnt that big of a suprise and even when im doing good i have to keep my motives in check... but just for today i know im sober and im trying to be more honest... On a diffrent aspect I still find myself longing for more of a social aspect of my life but that also scares me as to where i have ended up before... but i know i have to just keep trucking on and be strong... who knows how it will end this time... as long as im honest it should be ok...

Soberwolf

Good that your sober Eric have you got a sober plan

Being dishonest only leads to trouble

Anna

I think that honesty is all-important in recovery and sometimes being honest with ourselves is the hardest thing to do.

thomas11

Hi EricinPA, most of us don't like to face consequences for our actions, but its part of being a responsible adult. I own a small company and I get my rear end chewed out on occasion because of a mistake that an employee made. I own it, I take the punishment and I make it right. Why? Because if I lied to a customer I couldn't sleep at night and I feel some kind of karma would come back to haunt me.

Based on your post, you sound like you know exactly your situation, why you are in it, and how to change it. Just move forward with that plan. You can do it. and you'll feel good about yourself. I wish you the best.

MIRecovery

We are only as sick as our secrets. I'm of the opinion that honesty is a bedrock principal of sobriety. Honesty is hard but with out it I can't stay sober