the progressiveness of this disease has turned me into a monster!
the progressiveness of this disease has turned me into a monster!
I'm not sure when the last time I posted on here was, but it's been a while. I have been drinking again now for quite some time. Last July I ended up in the hospital twice after a bad bout of drinking with mania and then depression.I did ok for a while again but lately I've been drinking a lot. It turned into a huge fiasco the other night, I have my whole entire family worried, I feel so ashamed. I used to be a very friendly drunk but now when I drink I get angry and scream and yell usually at my boyfriend who is typically with me when I drink. intern keen about with my sister 3 weeks ago turned into a fist fight!I have no choice but to stop this drinking for good, I need a lot of support because every time a week or so passes I think I'm going to be able to drink again responsibly. It's never going to happen!financial issues and related issues have really added to the stress in my life which in return has caused excessive drinking. Next tuesday I will be having money reconstruction did as I tore my acl completely apart, damaged my meniscus and MCL in a skiing accident.just thought I would check in and get back into trying to be a healthy person again and eliminating the alcohol from my life. Glad to be back!
Welcome back TooMutch.
I find myself in a similar position financially. Paranoid tbh about losing everything. I am still in a dangerous zone. I find I cannot go it alone and decided last week to try AA again. It was a good meeting for me, and I have decided as well as SR, AA is my only hope. I'm not trying to sell this to you, But could be worth giving this or something similar a try.
I wish you well.
I find myself in a similar position financially. Paranoid tbh about losing everything. I am still in a dangerous zone. I find I cannot go it alone and decided last week to try AA again. It was a good meeting for me, and I have decided as well as SR, AA is my only hope. I'm not trying to sell this to you, But could be worth giving this or something similar a try.
I wish you well.
I would like to find another recovery group other than AAA. I've done as in the past and its just not for me.these posts probably aren't making a lot of sense I cannot correct my spelling errors. Obviously I meant AA.
Welcome back! Many of us got sober right here at SR - posting daily, listening and responding to others, etc. I'd recommend giving it a try and sticking around for a while and checking out all the threads. We do a "weekenders thread" that will appear on Thursday, it's meant to help out newcomers and veterans alike stay sober for the weekend. It's active, lively, and a lot of fun!
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I was in the same situation as you for many years - I knew drinking was bad for me but i still kept doing it. I hoped and hoped that if i cut back, or quit for a while, i'd be able to control it again some day. But it never happens - and as you are finding it gets worse. The key for me was accepting the fact that I cannot ever drink again wihout negative consequences. There is no pill I can take, no treatment I can follow, no book I can read that will ever allow me to drink responsibly again - it simply IS. Once you can accept that you can begin to work on living your life, rather than fighting a battle you will never win.
Perhaps joining one of the daily or monthly threads here would be of help to get started?
Toomuch, Sorry you are having such a tough time. It surely is not easy to get sober and stay sober. If AA is not for you, give AVRT a try. Just google it and see what it is all about. I'm using AVRT...but also go to a couple AA meetings for that face to face reinforcement. I think this is working for me anyway. Best wishes.
Hey Toomuch...I totally understand when you say that AA isn't for you. I went to over 90 meetings in 90 days while in rehab and it just didn't do anything for me. I just felt like I didn't fit in with most groups.
Have you seen a therapist about your drinking? Maybe they could help you out instead of AA.
Have you seen a therapist about your drinking? Maybe they could help you out instead of AA.
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I understand how finances can be stressful. I'm at 57 days or so and had to refinance my house to kill the fires I created drinking.
I have 2 solid years of sacrifice to dig out. But without drinking, I have a fighting chance. So can you, just make a plan for both sobriety and finances and stick to it, be stubborn about it.
I have 2 solid years of sacrifice to dig out. But without drinking, I have a fighting chance. So can you, just make a plan for both sobriety and finances and stick to it, be stubborn about it.
((((toomutch))))
I'm glad to see you! I know you can get the sobriety back, you did before and did well! Alcoholism is progressive, it always gets worse. I have seven years now!
Be kind to yourself. See your doctor and get your meds straightened out, you'll feel better soon. I know you're a lovely and loving person!
Love from Lenina
I'm glad to see you! I know you can get the sobriety back, you did before and did well! Alcoholism is progressive, it always gets worse. I have seven years now!
Be kind to yourself. See your doctor and get your meds straightened out, you'll feel better soon. I know you're a lovely and loving person!
Love from Lenina
Welcome back Toomutch
while I understand you may have misgivings about AA, things seem a littler out of control in your life - you need to do something.
Have you considered other meeting based options like SMART Recovery or LifeRing?
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while I understand you may have misgivings about AA, things seem a littler out of control in your life - you need to do something.
Have you considered other meeting based options like SMART Recovery or LifeRing?
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