449 days sober
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449 days sober
Just wanted to check in. It's been a while since I have written in but I still visit to read posts all of the time. There are days when my brain thinks... ah maybe on vacation I could drink then but realistically I know that it would be a slippery slope after that. To be honest I don't think I could imagine drinking without a cigarette and i've quit those too. So i figure if i gave in to one, i'd most definitely give in to the other.
I have to say that it is hard work on every level but well worth it. I just always think to myself when I am at parties or out with friends who drink, about the next day and how it felt to be soooo hungover. I was sooo hungover everyday for 2 years before I quit. It would never be just a few drinks for me. Actually even now the idea of just a few drinks is absurd.
The first year was such a struggle to find some kind of regulation and to be honest, it still is for me. It's only now that I feel like there is a bit of leveling. To be honest, a drink would put me directly off kilter again and I just couldn't go back to that life anymore.
Lots of wonderful things have happened this last year. I feel like I am finally taking control of my life for once. I am almost 40 and just getting my life together now. It feels good. There was that time when I just couldn't imagine my life without a drink. I don't think I knew a lot of people who didn't drink and that adjustment seemed incomprehensible. But like everything it has just been time that sobriety has been the new normal. I'm surprised to say that I have many friends now who don't or hardly drink at all (i really didn't think these people existed when i drank).
And there are times when I get a bit envious of those who can have a drink here and there but I know that just wasn't me. It never was. As far as I am concerned I have the X factor and that is that.
Still every night before I go to bed I thank god that I am sober and I am eternally grateful for this second chance.
I have to say that it is hard work on every level but well worth it. I just always think to myself when I am at parties or out with friends who drink, about the next day and how it felt to be soooo hungover. I was sooo hungover everyday for 2 years before I quit. It would never be just a few drinks for me. Actually even now the idea of just a few drinks is absurd.
The first year was such a struggle to find some kind of regulation and to be honest, it still is for me. It's only now that I feel like there is a bit of leveling. To be honest, a drink would put me directly off kilter again and I just couldn't go back to that life anymore.
Lots of wonderful things have happened this last year. I feel like I am finally taking control of my life for once. I am almost 40 and just getting my life together now. It feels good. There was that time when I just couldn't imagine my life without a drink. I don't think I knew a lot of people who didn't drink and that adjustment seemed incomprehensible. But like everything it has just been time that sobriety has been the new normal. I'm surprised to say that I have many friends now who don't or hardly drink at all (i really didn't think these people existed when i drank).
And there are times when I get a bit envious of those who can have a drink here and there but I know that just wasn't me. It never was. As far as I am concerned I have the X factor and that is that.
Still every night before I go to bed I thank god that I am sober and I am eternally grateful for this second chance.
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Join Date: Feb 2015
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well done, is not easy to be sober. i'm impressed with your recovery so far, and i hope it will continue till the urge or cravenness of substance in your body will disappear for good. Likewise, I've been addicted from alcohol for almost 4 years. glad i won that battle now. it will be exactly my 2 years sober next week, and i'm quite proud for what i have achieved from being not alcoholic so far. It feels so good. I feel like a newborn child. Seems like a new flesh started to bloom in my body since the day i lost alcohol in my system. But let me tell you this, the road to recovery is not a stairway to heaven, it's an highway to hell. i'd been to many ups and down before i managed to control my alcohol level. So many counselling i attend off, spent a lot of time in AA meetings, been in every facility of addiction treatment centers for months, countless prayer meetings, support groups that near in my place here in GA, and any other means of group counselling, just name it. But what i learned is, it's not all about how much effort you put in or hard work you laid in those programs. It's your ability to Press forward to any challenge you will come across through out your recovery. Do not stop, do not linger in your journey, but strive for the mark set before you. Rowing harder doesn't help if the boat is headed in the wrong direction. To get through the hardest journey we need take only one step at a time, but we must keep on stepping.
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wow that's one great story . way to go cusper. keep it up you completely get back your self to wagon and finally meet sobriety. and so for you Hard73. i have a friend who also recovered because of treatment centers he had been to Hope Recovery Treatment Center. i feel overwhelmed reading your story guys.
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