Hendrix

First day for a few weeks that the AV has bothered me so just checking in for some forum grounding

For some reason my wife changed from drinking red wine (which I hate) to white which I used to be able to neck quite happily and it looked really appealing coming in from work.
I've just come back from dropping my lad and his drum kit off for a gig. We were the first in the venue as it was opening and it looked really inviting - I hadn't planned to watch the gig but the sights sounds and smells of the place was really seductive and I could quite happily have sat at the bar and knock back a few while they set up....

Now back at home I've had a nice cold orange and lemonade and will be eating in a minute.
It was scary though how easily I wanted to slip back into drinking - I really had to remind myself why I stopped and that I don't drink.
I felt a bit off guard for a minute and unsettled. I can't let myself take the eye off the ball!

chloebaby

Good for you! Don't let the AV win. You have come so far. Im sure your wife would switch back to red:-)

Soberwolf

Exellent post Hendrix congrats on recognising that AV and nipping it in the bud & now here talking about it

Your doing awesome but if it happens again try this & you can print it off aswell its very useful http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

Urge Surfing ? Relapse Prevention ? Mindfulness

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Its good to hear from you Hendrix

PurpleKnight

Great job on pushing through Hendrix!!

Rereading old posts I found was a great way to remind where you've come from and the reasons for quitting when your mind starts to sell the lies!!

Keep pushing through!!

advbike

Way to go man. The pull can be so seductive sometimes. You did good.

Nowsthetime

I'm glad you came here and posted! For me, verbalizing or writing my emotions makes me more aware of them and more accountable. Coming here and posting when I crave is part of my "plan". Keep up the good work. Being wasted SUCKS.

Thepatman

Well done shutting down that AV!

Sometimes all it takes is a step back from a tempting situation.

Jsbodhi

Wait a second!!!
Your AV goes to sleep?!?!!!!

Good job posting!

mns1

A solid reminder of why we must never let our guard down.

Way to stay focused Hendrix!

Hendrix

Thanks for all the support folks - don't know why, after a good period of feeling calm and almost content even, the AV activity has flared up unannounced.
What rattled its cage?
For some reason I'm finding it harder to knock it down and believe in my big plan..........
I've re-read my earlier posts - all the reasons still apply, just struggling at the moment.
I suppose I assumed it would get easier with time but this has come as a bit of a scary surprise.

Soberwolf

Whats in your recovery plan Hendrix

I had my last craving at month 5 your doing really well staying sober bud

keep posting my friend