chloebaby

I have been trying to find a new job. Drank 4 beer on Wednesday but nit good enough. I lost my license in August Dui. Trying to find a job has been hard. I had interview today for decent paying job but can't take it cuz no bus home. I know beee doesn't make it better in the long run but now.....why do I do it. I hate beer. There is an aa meeting tonight at 8 but im scared cuz I have been having a beer pity party. I don't want to go drinking but in the same respect its the only time I have guts is drinking.

sleepie

Stop where you are today and find a meeting in the afternoon if you can, if not can you spend time with a friend or family until 8?

Gonnachange

Don't complicate things. Do not drink. Read, exercise, talk to family or a friend. I know easier written than done, but sometimes we, or at least me, has to grind it out. Alcohol is not going to make anything better.

SoberLeigh

Chloe, pour out the rest of the beer and start re-hydrating with water. Please get to a meeting as soon as safely possible.

awuh1

The only requirement for AA meeting attendance is that you want to stop drinking. If you hold onto that, you'll be ok.

Soberwolf

Pour it away Chloebaby try & get to a meeting

make yourself a coffee and write out a sober plan if possible

print this thread off to keep to remind you that drinking is only hurting you

were all here for you

ScottFromWI

Lots of good advice here Chloe. Keep things simple and take it one task/one minute at a time if you have to. Control what you can control: First get rid of any alchol you have and stop drinking. Next find support...SR is a great place to start, good job for coming. Get to that meeting too if you can....all you need to do today is not drink today.

Nonsensical

Seems unlikely.

1. How do you know you don't have guts sober if you haven't given it a try?
2. Drunken courage is all bluster, full of sound and fury, but signifying nothing.
3. Drinking when you know you should stop is not a courageous act. It is taking your marching orders from a place that is best confronted and refused.

I am sorry you are having a difficult time, but welcome to the fight of your life.

sugarbear1

I've gone to meetings after drinking or after smoking weed, or both....

Do what you need to do to start to learn to stay stopped

mns1

Chloe, having guts means taking action in spite of fear, doubt, or anxiety. And these emotions can be powerful tools when we channel them proactively. Alcohol does not give you guts, it merely blinds you to these powerful emotional tools you have at your disposal.

I think you have more guts than you know. And you don't need alcohol to prove that. Dig deep down do what you need to do to push through this!

PurpleKnight

At some point we have to draw a line in the sand and say no more, make a stand and start to build the life we want, the life alcohol can't provide.

Small steps Chloe!! You can do this and turn a corner for the better!!