Trying again
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: LA California
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Trying again
I'm happy to be here. This is not my first attempt at getting sober, and honestly, my problem is not just with alcohol. My other problems are taking pills, methamphetamines, and cocaine.
In the past year alone, I've managed to isolate myself, completely. I have purposely pushed the people who love me the most, away. My irrational way of justifying what I have been doing, was by telling myself that they were better off not watching me self-destruct. I've hurt a lot of people, and I have a hard time forgiving myself for that.
Honestly, I have done a lot of things that I'm not proud of, but I am picking myself up and trying again. I hate waking up and having to have something...anything, to get me started in the day. Or not sleeping at all, feeling awful with whatever it was I mixed together that day or night before. I'm tired of the repetitiveness of it all, and want to be done with it for good.
This time, I am trying a new approach, (instead of AA/NA), and will being meeting with two different types of therapist each week, for as long as it may take. All I can do for now is take it one day at a time.
Thanks for listening,
~J.
In the past year alone, I've managed to isolate myself, completely. I have purposely pushed the people who love me the most, away. My irrational way of justifying what I have been doing, was by telling myself that they were better off not watching me self-destruct. I've hurt a lot of people, and I have a hard time forgiving myself for that.
Honestly, I have done a lot of things that I'm not proud of, but I am picking myself up and trying again. I hate waking up and having to have something...anything, to get me started in the day. Or not sleeping at all, feeling awful with whatever it was I mixed together that day or night before. I'm tired of the repetitiveness of it all, and want to be done with it for good.
This time, I am trying a new approach, (instead of AA/NA), and will being meeting with two different types of therapist each week, for as long as it may take. All I can do for now is take it one day at a time.
Thanks for listening,
~J.
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Posts: 67,047
Welcome Jazzy nice to meet you today im 18 months sober from alcohol and this summer il be 4 years clean from cocaine bud
its starts with acceptance and then we work to change ourselves so we dont end up going round in circles
spk soon
its starts with acceptance and then we work to change ourselves so we dont end up going round in circles
spk soon
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Posts: 100
There is hope...your feelings of despair have been felt by many. My gf was a meth addict, and she recovered. I am an alcoholic, myself, but going for treatment. If you can somehow get into a rehab program, inpatient, I highly suggest it.
I'm really happy to have found this site. And yes, one sober day at a time.
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