Mia1972

tonight for the first time i really want to get real drunk
curse to my ex, have casual sex with whomever, cry and so on and on
just get wasted
it all started with listening to this sad and meaningful songs
and in half an hour i will be in my night club
please send me your support notes
this is the first time i am going through this

Strength123

Hi mia1972,

Good that you posted here.

Fast forward to tomorrow morning. Have an honest talk with yourself, how will you be feeling, will you love yourself as you have been doing for the past 373 days? Please don't kid yourself. Cravings come and go - it might be worth asking -do you really want to me going out at all?

Thinking of you, you've done really well so far. No matter what you decide - don't beat yourself up, just be honest with yourself and know what will happen - based on past experiences.

I hope you do as it makes me feel very optimistic for a sober future.
Strength to you x

Ruby2

NO NO NO!!! Don't do it. I'm glad you are here, asking for support. Think about how you will feel in the morning. I sometimes still get the feeling that I want to get knock down, angry drunk to somehow punish myself (for what, I'm sometimes not sure) or to punish other people. Sometimes I've found myself sitting in my car yelling and crying. It helped by releasing the emotions. Hang in there.

Findingtheway

Play the tape through. I had 87 days sober a few weeks back.

6 destructive drinking days later...I'm back.

Those 6 days were some of the worst i've ever had. Withdrawals etc...

I'm 4 days sober now. REALLY wish i could take those 6 back but i can't.

PLAY THE TAPE THROUGH! Please don't fall for this! It's a lie!

mirage

Don't do it, mia..you'll be so disappointed in yourself. I want you to feel good about yourself and proud, you deserve that after all you've been through. Try a guided meditation site on line, have a bath, do a bunch of jumping jacks, have something to eat, try a nap..you know the drill. Think about how it won't help you and distract yourself. Ride the wave, girl, it'll pass. Good luck!

Soberwolf

Hi Mia welcome youl find so much support here well done on 373 days

Im sorry your feeling like this but drinking wont solve anything itl make it 100 times worse

Try this http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

Dont throw your sobriety away your worth more than that

hugs

CAPTAINZING2000

What was your reason to stop drinking 373 days ago?
I've seen numerous people get a taste of sobriety go back out and never get sober again.

I've seen thousands of posts from people on here being sober a while and trying to drink again. A week or a month or two later, post again with remorse over trying to drink again.
The odds of someone with a drinking problem able to drink normally is almost zero.

TNjack

I'm on day 2. I just got off work its Friday and I am off tommorrow. I would normally want to get wasted tonight. But you know what I'm not going to. Please, please don't drink. Do it for me . I am pissed off at alcohol and I never want to give into it again.

Cowgirlie

Just want to send some support. Really hope you stick to it, and also never listen to that triggering music again! There are films I avoid as I know they will make me want to get drunk. Hang in there - you have done so well so far xx

Dee74

Drinking won't solve anything Mia - it won't allow you to run away either - not for long.
Stay with us

Whatever problems you have, there's better healthier ways to deal

D

Aellyce

Mia, this sounds like an impulse that has been evoked, most likely, via the association of emotional memories between that song and your past drinking (and whatever else just happened to you). These associations can be extremely powerful "cues" and the memories sometimes last for a very long time and become unconscious with time, so when something like this happens suddenly and recalls it, it's like a shock.

373 days is a great chunk of sobriety. You must have developed some coping methods to fight cravings in the early days. My suggestion is that you use what worked for you back then. I was given the same advice just recently, and it worked. I had some spells like this a few days ago, just my mind decided to crave drugs rather than alcohol, but I could track it down quite well later. When it happens, it's really best to just focus on going through it. Lots of good suggestions here.

Please don't give in to this thing, think about how you would feel afterward... I'm glad that you posted this.

KarenSmith

Definitely play the tape through to the end! Think about how crappy you will feel tomorrow physically and how disappointed you will be in yourself! 377 days! Wow. Just wow. Can you just turn around and not go to the bar?

firstymer

I will be thinking good thoughts for you Mia. Please be good to yourself. And let us know how things turn out.

Good luck. We are pulling for you.

Ultramarathoner

I've got nothing to add but my support! A bunch of folks are pulling for you!

desion

Wow! 373 days. Way to go.

Want to support you and I am very confident that you will not go for it.

petals

keep strong and close to sr. we'er all here for you.xx

WIP17

Thoughts are only thoughts... If you don't react to them, the thoughts go away. Reach out, so much going for you 373 days is awesome! You have support here. Stay close to SR!

Anna

Don't let the thoughts dictate what you do.

You can let go of the thoughts. They don't control you.

Plure

I'm in awe of your 373 days sobriety. I'm right at 90 days. Keep up the good fight and don't give in!

joyfullysober

Dont be fooled about the 373 days of sobriety. It is a HUGE achievement, but it doesnt mean you are done with the addiction. It is playing tricks with your mind. You will feel miserable tomorrow if you drink. Why dont you just skip the club today and do something else. Good luck!