Back and on Day 3!
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Back and on Day 3!
Hi,
I've been a member here a few times before, each time not being able to quit. But I still need to stay sober, so I made up another username and am going for it. Giving up is not an option.
Which is what I did do last year as the new year came closer. I had given up. I started to drink more than before and didn't care anymore.
Until I woke up one night with a sharp pain on my chest, in my jaw and it spreading out to my left arm. It was heartburn btw, it can feel exactly like a heart attack. I've learned that from someone who had both. And I knew that that what it was because I had it before.
But in that moment I realized that if I keep drinking, there will be a moment that it IS a heart attack. And that scared the crap out of me. Then I dreamed that I had cancer, hepatitis, liver failure and whatever else alcohol causes.
Stupid thing is that I drank again the next day. But the desire to quit was back, thanks to the scary night. So I planned to quit the next day, which was 3 days ago. And I've been sober so far.
One thing I realized is that it takes work. Previous attempts failed, not because I didn't want to quit. I did want to. I just felt like I couldn't do what is needed. Without even having tried. So now I'm working on it, and found that I am able to do that.
I could have been dropped off at the best facility with the desire to quit but not working on it and it would have failed. Now I'm at home, working on it and 3 days is a breakthrough for me.
I've been a member here a few times before, each time not being able to quit. But I still need to stay sober, so I made up another username and am going for it. Giving up is not an option.
Which is what I did do last year as the new year came closer. I had given up. I started to drink more than before and didn't care anymore.
Until I woke up one night with a sharp pain on my chest, in my jaw and it spreading out to my left arm. It was heartburn btw, it can feel exactly like a heart attack. I've learned that from someone who had both. And I knew that that what it was because I had it before.
But in that moment I realized that if I keep drinking, there will be a moment that it IS a heart attack. And that scared the crap out of me. Then I dreamed that I had cancer, hepatitis, liver failure and whatever else alcohol causes.
Stupid thing is that I drank again the next day. But the desire to quit was back, thanks to the scary night. So I planned to quit the next day, which was 3 days ago. And I've been sober so far.
One thing I realized is that it takes work. Previous attempts failed, not because I didn't want to quit. I did want to. I just felt like I couldn't do what is needed. Without even having tried. So now I'm working on it, and found that I am able to do that.
I could have been dropped off at the best facility with the desire to quit but not working on it and it would have failed. Now I'm at home, working on it and 3 days is a breakthrough for me.
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