Why did I used to torture myself?
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Why did I used to torture myself?
I have a new sister-in-law as of 4:30 pm yesterday (31st).
It hasn't been an easy few days for me. Lots of long dinners with extended family.
Last night the bride's father wanted to go to a bar. I can't remember when I was last in a pub. He asked me if I would like a drink, so I said "I would like a soda water with a dash of lime thank you". To which he responded "would you like a proper drink?"
I was asked to give the second reading at the mass. I have learned a few things about myself today. I am not as afraid of public speaking as I thought, and I am not as self conscious as I used to be.
I drank a lot because I was so afraid of what people thought of me. I hated dancing, always.
Today I decided "screw this" and I got up and shook my ass! I am beginning to not care what people think of me, because honestly, life is short.
I had to laugh because my mom asked me where did I learn to dance so well?
Actually, my therapist gave me good advice when I was freaking out about my cousins wedding. He said I should make sure to dress nicely, and do something nice like get a facial, so this morning I got my make up and nails done at the beauty salon. I have to admit, it helped a lot. It's great having a job! And people were interested and were asking what I do.
The wedding ceremony was very moving, and I had tears in my eyes several times.
I'm so glad I'm sober as I will treasure these memories forever.
Happy New Year to all of you.
It hasn't been an easy few days for me. Lots of long dinners with extended family.
Last night the bride's father wanted to go to a bar. I can't remember when I was last in a pub. He asked me if I would like a drink, so I said "I would like a soda water with a dash of lime thank you". To which he responded "would you like a proper drink?"
I was asked to give the second reading at the mass. I have learned a few things about myself today. I am not as afraid of public speaking as I thought, and I am not as self conscious as I used to be.
I drank a lot because I was so afraid of what people thought of me. I hated dancing, always.
Today I decided "screw this" and I got up and shook my ass! I am beginning to not care what people think of me, because honestly, life is short.
I had to laugh because my mom asked me where did I learn to dance so well?
Actually, my therapist gave me good advice when I was freaking out about my cousins wedding. He said I should make sure to dress nicely, and do something nice like get a facial, so this morning I got my make up and nails done at the beauty salon. I have to admit, it helped a lot. It's great having a job! And people were interested and were asking what I do.
The wedding ceremony was very moving, and I had tears in my eyes several times.
I'm so glad I'm sober as I will treasure these memories forever.
Happy New Year to all of you.
Life is an unlikely miracle.
Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: England
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So happy that you shook your ass, Tetra !
And that you stood up and gave a reading too.
Yes, you have some great memories there, that must be so wonderful for you.
Happy New Year
And that you stood up and gave a reading too.
Yes, you have some great memories there, that must be so wonderful for you.
Happy New Year
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: midwest
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Great post! It's amazing how much alcohol deluted us in fear. Now thats it's out of the picture I feel much more happy with myself and confident then I ever did drunk, but now its real and actually who I am now and evolving as I grow as a person. Loved reading your post.
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