Back Again!
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Back Again!
Im back again in the bottom.. I have been here before, and I have sworn never to be back here again. And yet here I am, feeling like s**t, having let others down. I even cheated on my GF. It is a cycle from which I now feel I cannot escape. When will this end? I am not even sure I can call this a relapse since my commitments usually last for 2 weeks. Falling after such a short effort maybe just means I never left the habit.
I'm sad, I want to cry. Worst Christmas day ever. And it is all my fault.
However, I'm here. Ready to give this a new try.
I'm sad, I want to cry. Worst Christmas day ever. And it is all my fault.
However, I'm here. Ready to give this a new try.
Welcome back!!
What do you do for those 2 weeks, other than relying on sheer willpower not to drink?
For me left alone with my own thoughts, I too used to drink after a few weeks, because my own mind, which was addicted to alcohol wanted to drink, so there was only one inevitable outcome in isolation!!
Support was what I needed, something outside of myself to short circuit my own mind, whether it's meetings, regular SR attendance, whatever it is, something different to what your doing now.
Nothing changes, no new results, if we keep doing the same thing!!
You can do this, go at things with a new plan and you'll get there!!
What do you do for those 2 weeks, other than relying on sheer willpower not to drink?
For me left alone with my own thoughts, I too used to drink after a few weeks, because my own mind, which was addicted to alcohol wanted to drink, so there was only one inevitable outcome in isolation!!
Support was what I needed, something outside of myself to short circuit my own mind, whether it's meetings, regular SR attendance, whatever it is, something different to what your doing now.
Nothing changes, no new results, if we keep doing the same thing!!
You can do this, go at things with a new plan and you'll get there!!
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Thanks Least!
I have sworn to break the cycle, but the only thing I break are the promises I have made to my lived ones. I don't even want to tell them how I feel because I think my credibility is almost completely lost by now.
I have sworn to break the cycle, but the only thing I break are the promises I have made to my lived ones. I don't even want to tell them how I feel because I think my credibility is almost completely lost by now.
Sounds like a good day to get sober. I would recommend that you try something different. Perhaps something radically different than what you have done in the past. Perhaps going to regular AA meetings would fit that bill. Just a suggestion. Whataya got to lose.
A lot of us have been where you are., Riig.
I can understand your despair, but there are ways to do this.
it's not easy at first but it is worth it.
Echoing everyone else here, you need to do something different this time.
You can do this !
I can understand your despair, but there are ways to do this.
it's not easy at first but it is worth it.
Echoing everyone else here, you need to do something different this time.
You can do this !
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Thaks all. Im in day 2 and i hate it! Why? Because i do not drink everyday, so day 2 feels like i have not accomplished anything and yet the pain from the last binge episode is still so fresh. I hope from the bottom of my heart that this is the last. I cant undo my mistakes as much as i want to. I do however want to make amendments to people i hurt. The problem is I dont think people believe in me anymore. Any ideas?
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Stay strong. There is a lot of support out there and if you make the positive changes in your life toward sobriety, your loved ones will see that you have turned your life around and a different person
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