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Really want to better myself
I am 41 years old and a crack addict. I have a wonderful family and a loving wife who stands by my side regardless of my problem. I have been using off and on for I would say 10 years. I used to do crack once every 6 months but for the past 2 months, I disappeared a total of 2 times to go on a crack binge. I keep telling myself and my wife that this is the last time and will never happen again. I'm scared of who I have become and want to get rid of this problem forever.
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Welcome Pengo 
I have no experience with crack myself but I know you'll find support here, both in this forum and in our substance abuse forum as well
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I have no experience with crack myself but I know you'll find support here, both in this forum and in our substance abuse forum as well
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
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Thank you Hevyn. I was reluctant to post my problem on here initially. Was afraid of being looked down on and belittled. This last time I messed up, my wife actually didnt even get mad when I finally came home. She looked more sad than anything else. And this just killed me.
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I have no experience with crack myself but a close friend of mine has struggled with it for years. He also tends to disappear for days at a time once or twice a year. I'll get a call from his brother from time to time looking for him. We put two and two together and figure he's on a binge somewhere.
It sounds like a dangerous situation to be off on a crack binge. Can u involve your wife more with keeping you clean? Like having her control the money?
It sounds like a dangerous situation to be off on a crack binge. Can u involve your wife more with keeping you clean? Like having her control the money?
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Originally Posted by Pengo 
Thank you Hevyn. I was reluctant to post my problem on here initially. Was afraid of being looked down on and belittled. This last time I messed up, my wife actually didnt even get mad when I finally came home. She looked more sad than anything else. And this just killed me.
Good to have you on board.
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Our addictions definitely cause sadness to people close to us but we have a nasty habit of blaming them. I invited my wife to join me at a few 12 step meetings and she was happy to do so and now if I miss a meeting for a few days, she encourages me to go. It's helped our relationship enormously.
Do come here for all the support you need Pengo but please also think about meetings and face-to-face support.
Do come here for all the support you need Pengo but please also think about meetings and face-to-face support.
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Hi pengo. I am also 41 and recently decided that I don't want to spend another 20 years feeling like crap. I quit meth in my early twenties only to trade it for a constant drinking problem. I've also seen many of my friends and family struggle with their various drugs of choice over the years. Point is, I expect I'm not alone here. Addiction is addiction and SR is a great community of people that realize this, in many cases have dealt with numerous addictions themselves, and are supportive in our efforts to change. Stay strong and best to you!
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