4 Dinners 2 partys to go...
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Belfast, NI
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Aiko, just by reading your posts I really like you already! Sounds to me like you're doing brilliantly to abstain and you should be proud and celebrate that!! Try and remove yourself from those situations where your friends are drinking/smoking, the pressure those situations are putting on you seem unbearable! look after yourself and don't worry about your friends, at least for the meantime?
Aiko.
AlmA
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Marbella Spain
Posts: 714
New Year Just to let you know I survived clean and sober 
I had to toast twice with champagne and pretended was drinking...
God I nearly drank it!
My neighbour died on the 31st.
My dad got drunk and could not even put the seat belt on,
Talking @@@@@ all the way and back to the family dinner...
My family was shocked when I said I was not going out, even pressure me!
But I did not go out after cos I knew I wanted to get smashed...
1st Jan the funeral... was not up to it at!!! All but was a really good person!
And tonight I was with two friends they where smoking in the car park of hospital but I did not! I know is not going to make me feel any better!
It’s a horrible feeling; Not wanting to be alive but have to be for others!
I just want to be un-consciousness, disconnect, desappear!
But I can NOT go back to drinking and taking pills and drugs...
So I have to change or continue suffering!
You have to cross the bridge, either singing/smiling or miserable/angry...
So you decide... you are going to cross it anyway!!!
Thank you for all your support these days
have been really hard for most of us!!!
Big Hug and Hope to all of you XO
I had to toast twice with champagne and pretended was drinking...
God I nearly drank it!
My neighbour died on the 31st.
My dad got drunk and could not even put the seat belt on,
Talking @@@@@ all the way and back to the family dinner...
My family was shocked when I said I was not going out, even pressure me!
But I did not go out after cos I knew I wanted to get smashed...
1st Jan the funeral... was not up to it at!!! All but was a really good person!
And tonight I was with two friends they where smoking in the car park of hospital but I did not! I know is not going to make me feel any better!
It’s a horrible feeling; Not wanting to be alive but have to be for others!
I just want to be un-consciousness, disconnect, desappear!
But I can NOT go back to drinking and taking pills and drugs...
So I have to change or continue suffering!
You have to cross the bridge, either singing/smiling or miserable/angry...
So you decide... you are going to cross it anyway!!!
Thank you for all your support these days
have been really hard for most of us!!!
Big Hug and Hope to all of you XO
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