33 and need to stop drinking.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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33 and need to stop drinking.
Hello everyone,
I've had issues with alcohol and addiction for as many years as I can remember. My relationship with the bottle has caused me and those I love so much sadness. I gave of up for nearly six months in late 2011 and early 2012, but started again and have been trying to moderate since then, with varying degrees of unsuccess. I have a wonderful partner and I do my best to control it when we are together, but we are geographically apart for six months now (this will soon come to an end) and my drinking is out of control, my life unmanageable. I live in a small provincial town. There is an AA meeting tomorrow and I hope to go.
I'm so scared. My body, my mind and my would have taken such a pounding. I generally smoke heavily when I drink and I feel pain throughout my body. I had a particularly heavy bout all day yesterday and today I'm so worried I have done irreversible damage to my health. I am afraid I'm not strong enough to walk away from alcohol, even though I know keeping the party going will end badly. I feel so lost and so lonely and I figured posting here might be a good way to stop lying to myself about how serious this is. Christmas is coming and I find myself dreading drinking sessions.
Thanks for reading this. I haven't had a drink in 12 hours. I have to go to work now and I don't know how I'll get through it.
I've had issues with alcohol and addiction for as many years as I can remember. My relationship with the bottle has caused me and those I love so much sadness. I gave of up for nearly six months in late 2011 and early 2012, but started again and have been trying to moderate since then, with varying degrees of unsuccess. I have a wonderful partner and I do my best to control it when we are together, but we are geographically apart for six months now (this will soon come to an end) and my drinking is out of control, my life unmanageable. I live in a small provincial town. There is an AA meeting tomorrow and I hope to go.
I'm so scared. My body, my mind and my would have taken such a pounding. I generally smoke heavily when I drink and I feel pain throughout my body. I had a particularly heavy bout all day yesterday and today I'm so worried I have done irreversible damage to my health. I am afraid I'm not strong enough to walk away from alcohol, even though I know keeping the party going will end badly. I feel so lost and so lonely and I figured posting here might be a good way to stop lying to myself about how serious this is. Christmas is coming and I find myself dreading drinking sessions.
Thanks for reading this. I haven't had a drink in 12 hours. I have to go to work now and I don't know how I'll get through it.
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Join Date: Oct 2014
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Hey Javanaise, sorry to hear you're struggling. Getting along to AA sounds like a good idea, could you hit a meeting today after work? I know it's easy to find reasons not to go, but it sounds like it's just what you need. Just my opinion. And maybe think about seeing a doctor, if you're really worried about the physical stuff.
In any case, there's a lot of long-termers on here who can probably offer better advice!
Anyway, stay calm, deep breaths, stay close to the forum, and don't drink today. You've got support!
In any case, there's a lot of long-termers on here who can probably offer better advice!
Anyway, stay calm, deep breaths, stay close to the forum, and don't drink today. You've got support!
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It's great to meet you Javanaise. You're doing a wonderful thing for yourself by joining us. You can do this - it's hard in the beginning, but each day will get a little easier. Then you never have to go through this again. Glad to have you here. 
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Welcome! You've made the first step which is often the hardest to make. You've realized you need help. Congratulations!!! Get your butt to an AA meeting and/or stick around here. This forum has gotten many of us through really hard times.
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