Only took 5 years to get 90 Days
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Only took 5 years to get 90 Days
Hello to all,
I first posted in 2009 and tried again in 2011. Finally, I think I'm on the right track. My sobriety date is 8/11/14. I'm going to AA meetings and so proud to have been able to take a 90 day chip this month!!! Me--who hadn't been able to go more than two weeks without drinking--and that was only once in the last 30 years. Before, I just thought I could white knuckle it and stop--in secret -- like my drinking. But that wasn't working and -- my drinking was becoming less and less 'secret'. No DUI or legal problems YET, still have my job and home and husband but I could not continue like I was. I was becoming more and more isolated and I was just totally 'soul sick'. This isn't easy--many days I've had to stop and wonder why I'm thinking of alcohol--and guess what?? It could have been because I wanted to celebrate something, or it could be I was mad or sad....Hmmmmm...Had to admit wine had become my go to for WHATEVER was happening in my life. And then, with a blackout, I ruined the celebration or didn't remember it, OR woke up hungover AND still facing whatever problem made me think I 'needed' a drink.
Along with AA I wanted to come back here and reconnect with SR. So much wisdom and support here--glad to be back. One day at a time-I want to make my life better and maybe I can help someone else who's struggling. We're all in this together.
I don't just want to survive -- I want to thrive sober.
I first posted in 2009 and tried again in 2011. Finally, I think I'm on the right track. My sobriety date is 8/11/14. I'm going to AA meetings and so proud to have been able to take a 90 day chip this month!!! Me--who hadn't been able to go more than two weeks without drinking--and that was only once in the last 30 years. Before, I just thought I could white knuckle it and stop--in secret -- like my drinking. But that wasn't working and -- my drinking was becoming less and less 'secret'. No DUI or legal problems YET, still have my job and home and husband but I could not continue like I was. I was becoming more and more isolated and I was just totally 'soul sick'. This isn't easy--many days I've had to stop and wonder why I'm thinking of alcohol--and guess what?? It could have been because I wanted to celebrate something, or it could be I was mad or sad....Hmmmmm...Had to admit wine had become my go to for WHATEVER was happening in my life. And then, with a blackout, I ruined the celebration or didn't remember it, OR woke up hungover AND still facing whatever problem made me think I 'needed' a drink.
Along with AA I wanted to come back here and reconnect with SR. So much wisdom and support here--glad to be back. One day at a time-I want to make my life better and maybe I can help someone else who's struggling. We're all in this together.
I don't just want to survive -- I want to thrive sober.
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Well done!
I was just thinking that today. Wine was my go to for everything. Happy, sad, stressed, hurt, excited, on and on. I concluded I'm just an alcoholic who needed a reason to binge drink several times a week.
I was just thinking that today. Wine was my go to for everything. Happy, sad, stressed, hurt, excited, on and on. I concluded I'm just an alcoholic who needed a reason to binge drink several times a week.
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