What was the height of your drinking? behaviors etc...?
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What was the height of your drinking? behaviors etc...?
I am curious to know how I relate to other members. I believe I have an alcohol problem, and my sister just told me that I wasn't drinking THAT much. I personally don't care if I was drinking five bottles of whiskey or three glasses of wine a day. I feel SO good sober that I can't believe I wasted so much time drinking and obsessing over the buzz. I was drinking a bottle and a half of wine daily. I would definitely say that is excessive. And even that was me trying to control the beast and cut myself off by 6 30pm.
Any stories to share? Any one with similar things to say?
Any stories to share? Any one with similar things to say?
It's a natural human instinct to compare and contrast, to try and gauge where we fit in...but it really doesn't matter with alcohol IMO...
I know guys who drank less than me who have died, and people who drank more than me who are still drinking,. seem happy and themselves don't identify as alcoholic.
I drank enough to be drunk from sunup to bed time by the end.
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I know guys who drank less than me who have died, and people who drank more than me who are still drinking,. seem happy and themselves don't identify as alcoholic.
I drank enough to be drunk from sunup to bed time by the end.
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I am curious to know how I relate to other members. I believe I have an alcohol problem, and my sister just told me that I wasn't drinking THAT much. I personally don't care if I was drinking five bottles of whiskey or three glasses of wine a day. I feel SO good sober that I can't believe I wasted so much time drinking and obsessing over the buzz. I was drinking a bottle and a half of wine daily. I would definitely say that is excessive. And even that was me trying to control the beast and cut myself off by 6 30pm.
Any stories to share? Any one with similar things to say?
Any stories to share? Any one with similar things to say?
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If I wasn't at work, I was drinking. I was always fine socially, just chatty. The rest of the time I was sat watching tv, drinking and smoking. One cig per two beers, that's what I'd do, hour after hour, day after day.
But I was destroying myself. My life revolved around it, I was destroying my health, I was hungover every day and I was miserable.
My behaviour though was never really the problem.
But I was destroying myself. My life revolved around it, I was destroying my health, I was hungover every day and I was miserable.
My behaviour though was never really the problem.
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If I wasn't at work, I was drinking. I was always fine socially, just chatty. The rest of the time I was sat watching tv, drinking and smoking. One cig per two beers, that's what I'd do, hour after hour, day after day.
But I was destroying myself. My life revolved around it, I was destroying my health, I was hungover every day and I was miserable.
My behaviour though was never really the problem.
But I was destroying myself. My life revolved around it, I was destroying my health, I was hungover every day and I was miserable.
My behaviour though was never really the problem.
I would echo others who said their behavior hadn't necessarily become a noticeable problem (yet). I was and am excelling at my job too (so far). It's funny, but I just realized that my worst drinking days were actually during the same times when I was offered big promotions. Weird.
I can look back at some crazy times when I was younger but nothing notable has happened recently, other than the soul-crushing need to drink more and more, and the despair and hopelessness that was starting to become my new normal. I'm not sure if that makes sense or not.
I can look back at some crazy times when I was younger but nothing notable has happened recently, other than the soul-crushing need to drink more and more, and the despair and hopelessness that was starting to become my new normal. I'm not sure if that makes sense or not.
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My experience is similar to yours. A bottle of wine contains 5 drinks. I was drinking a pint of whiskey a night. That's 7 drinks. That was enough to completely spin me around and screw me up. I was an at home wait until everything was done no problem type drinker. When I quit nobody believed my drinking qualified. I was hiding it after all. I even had a alcohol counselor tell a room full of kids that people like me(not me specifically) were not alcoholics. He said an alcoholics brain says drink or you will die. There came a point that I realized if I didn't quit drinking I would die. Love your username! That's how it felt. I was escaping a cycle.
I would echo others who said their behavior hadn't necessarily become a noticeable problem (yet). I was and am excelling at my job too (so far). It's funny, but I just realized that my worst drinking days were actually during the same times when I was offered big promotions. Weird.
I can look back at some crazy times when I was younger but nothing notable has happened recently, other than the soul-crushing need to drink more and more, and the despair and hopelessness that was starting to become my new normal. I'm not sure if that makes sense or not.
I can look back at some crazy times when I was younger but nothing notable has happened recently, other than the soul-crushing need to drink more and more, and the despair and hopelessness that was starting to become my new normal. I'm not sure if that makes sense or not.
Anyone who knew me well and cared about me told me I had a problem with my drinking.
The only people who would co-sign my denial bull___ were people who I got wasted in the pub with. And soon they all disappeared, as I became an alone drinker at home.
My alcoholism progressed pretty thick and fast.
The only people who would co-sign my denial bull___ were people who I got wasted in the pub with. And soon they all disappeared, as I became an alone drinker at home.
My alcoholism progressed pretty thick and fast.
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My experience is similar to yours. A bottle of wine contains 5 drinks. I was drinking a pint of whiskey a night. That's 7 drinks. That was enough to completely spin me around and screw me up. I was an at home wait until everything was done no problem type drinker. When I quit nobody believed my drinking qualified. I was hiding it after all. I even had a alcohol counselor tell a room full of kids that people like me(not me specifically) were not alcoholics. He said an alcoholics brain says drink or you will die. There came a point that I realized if I didn't quit drinking I would die. Love your username! That's how it felt. I was escaping a cycle.
I don't mind sharing. I hope it shows the progression and health decline.
2006-2009: 1/4 fifth to 1/2 a fifth of vodka every night mixed with soda. I felt satisfied with this amount and would drink water before bed. Hangovers almost nonexistent. I did not drink to blackout, just happy buzz. I still had an OFF switch in this phase.
2009-2013: >half liter (.5-.6 L) of vodka every night mixed with diet soda. 360 days a year. Hangovers 365 days a year. Blackouts became weekly. Only nights off were flu or too hungover to even drink. Cured hangovers with more vodka the next night. Never missed work. Never puked either, just felt like death all day, every day. I had a headache for four years. OFF SWITCH BROKEN.
Blackouts became destructive and dangerous.
2013-June 2014. Stopped the vodka. Could no longer handle the hangovers. 12 beers a night, 4-6 nights a week. Too hungover to drink two other days. Sick and tired every day.
June 27th: LAST drink. LAST hangover. I was too sick to continue. Hangovers became nuclear, even with beer.
June 2014-NOW: No hangovers. No blackouts. No shame. No regret. No headaches. No daily diarrhea. No drained bank accounts. No panic attacks.
2006-2009: 1/4 fifth to 1/2 a fifth of vodka every night mixed with soda. I felt satisfied with this amount and would drink water before bed. Hangovers almost nonexistent. I did not drink to blackout, just happy buzz. I still had an OFF switch in this phase.
2009-2013: >half liter (.5-.6 L) of vodka every night mixed with diet soda. 360 days a year. Hangovers 365 days a year. Blackouts became weekly. Only nights off were flu or too hungover to even drink. Cured hangovers with more vodka the next night. Never missed work. Never puked either, just felt like death all day, every day. I had a headache for four years. OFF SWITCH BROKEN.
Blackouts became destructive and dangerous.
2013-June 2014. Stopped the vodka. Could no longer handle the hangovers. 12 beers a night, 4-6 nights a week. Too hungover to drink two other days. Sick and tired every day.
June 27th: LAST drink. LAST hangover. I was too sick to continue. Hangovers became nuclear, even with beer.
June 2014-NOW: No hangovers. No blackouts. No shame. No regret. No headaches. No daily diarrhea. No drained bank accounts. No panic attacks.
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