suboxone..:(
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suboxone..:(
Well im on day 22 of suboxone withdrawal. I must say Its one of the hardest things ive went through. I am an example of a person who shouldnt have been put on this drug. At age 8 my mother died and at 15 my father died
When dad died my sister took me into the bathroom and gave me a 7 mg of vicodin. She told me it would make everything better. It did and I fell in love. However..6 hours later I stopped feeling good. What I didnt realize was this was a temporary fix. Tet I didnt care I didnt want to feel the pain. It wasnt until 3 years later at age 18 I became addicted to Tramadol. It started onde again once my sister gave me these "magic pills" and wow. Best feeling ever. The high lasted hours and little did I know Tramadol had SSRI connections. After sharing her perscriptions..I got a script of my own. I stayed on them for a year. When I was fed up I tried to stop and then withdrawal hit. Boy I wish I would have stayed strong and went through that withdrawal. Instead..I got put on something way stronger and worse then my drug of choice. Now im not saying suboxone is useless. It keeps people sober and helps in so many ways. However..I believe doctors need to be more aware and study the drug more. If your going to do it for life steady..then ok. If your going to do it just for a few weeks..great. However..be wary of being on it for years and then trying to stop. I was on it for a couple years and I got so mentally and physically addicted to it. I never abused it but I sure clung to it as a crutch. Now..im on day 23 off and the symptoms are still lingering but each day gets better. I have a great boyfriend and beautiful 3 month old. (Ps taking care of baby while in withdrawal..psh..not for the weak hearted). Im just telling my story and want to tell everyone Im proud for all of you who have came off suboxone or any drug. You all are amazing and strong. I also want to spread the word to be cautious about suboxone and really plan it right. I tapered to 1 mg then jumped. I just was sick of something controlling me. I want to be free. Its still trying to hold me back but im pushing on. To make things worse I had to get my gallbladder removed and needed pain meds to heal. Its wierd because I actually am taking them right and for the reason they are made. However..My boyfriend holds the perscription for me just in case. Luckily I only have a weeks worth. I also am scared since technically this is an opiate that its delaying the end of my withdrawals. I still get sweats and creepy crawlies. (Ps..vics dont have nearly the pitency of the subs so I barley feel them). Anyways thats my story. Im no different then any other addict. I know I have a disease and all I can do is keep pushing. "This too shall pass". I think of that quote in terms of my lingering withdrawal symptoms. Goodluck to everyone and may god be with you. Xoxo
When dad died my sister took me into the bathroom and gave me a 7 mg of vicodin. She told me it would make everything better. It did and I fell in love. However..6 hours later I stopped feeling good. What I didnt realize was this was a temporary fix. Tet I didnt care I didnt want to feel the pain. It wasnt until 3 years later at age 18 I became addicted to Tramadol. It started onde again once my sister gave me these "magic pills" and wow. Best feeling ever. The high lasted hours and little did I know Tramadol had SSRI connections. After sharing her perscriptions..I got a script of my own. I stayed on them for a year. When I was fed up I tried to stop and then withdrawal hit. Boy I wish I would have stayed strong and went through that withdrawal. Instead..I got put on something way stronger and worse then my drug of choice. Now im not saying suboxone is useless. It keeps people sober and helps in so many ways. However..I believe doctors need to be more aware and study the drug more. If your going to do it for life steady..then ok. If your going to do it just for a few weeks..great. However..be wary of being on it for years and then trying to stop. I was on it for a couple years and I got so mentally and physically addicted to it. I never abused it but I sure clung to it as a crutch. Now..im on day 23 off and the symptoms are still lingering but each day gets better. I have a great boyfriend and beautiful 3 month old. (Ps taking care of baby while in withdrawal..psh..not for the weak hearted). Im just telling my story and want to tell everyone Im proud for all of you who have came off suboxone or any drug. You all are amazing and strong. I also want to spread the word to be cautious about suboxone and really plan it right. I tapered to 1 mg then jumped. I just was sick of something controlling me. I want to be free. Its still trying to hold me back but im pushing on. To make things worse I had to get my gallbladder removed and needed pain meds to heal. Its wierd because I actually am taking them right and for the reason they are made. However..My boyfriend holds the perscription for me just in case. Luckily I only have a weeks worth. I also am scared since technically this is an opiate that its delaying the end of my withdrawals. I still get sweats and creepy crawlies. (Ps..vics dont have nearly the pitency of the subs so I barley feel them). Anyways thats my story. Im no different then any other addict. I know I have a disease and all I can do is keep pushing. "This too shall pass". I think of that quote in terms of my lingering withdrawal symptoms. Goodluck to everyone and may god be with you. Xoxo
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Sounds like you're past the worst of it, way to go! I think about how hard it was to get sober whenever I get a craving and say to myself "don't wanna go through that again". Keep up the good work!
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I am very, very proud of you. My mom was addicted to opiates for as long as I can remember. I watched her try to get off of them so I've seen how hard it is to do. Please stay strong, don't give up. I miss my mom every day.
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Well Dee74 it would have worked good but I didnt have good doctors who really cared. My first dr got arrested for medical drug dealing out of the country, my second wouldnt even talk with me just write my script and send me off and my last just wanted more and more money 
so no I dont have an adxiction specialist
so no I dont have an adxiction specialist 
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