Meraviglioso

Day 7 is here! I woke up and had that instant reaction of "uggggghhhhhhhh, quick quick, what did you do last night C? check the phone for time stamps on calls, messages to try and piece it back together. what little bits do you remember?" And then after a few seconds I realized that I didn't have to do that! I went to bed sober and was waking up to the one week mark of sobriety. I actually started sobbing tears of joy right there in my bed. Feeling so thankful today, I never thought I would get here despite how much I wanted it.

Last night was brutal. So funny that yesterday morning I posted a "stay positive" thread (which I still believe in!!!) and last night I was ready to throw sh*t around the house I was fighting such nasty cravings. I was *thisclose* to stopping by the bar nearby and just downing whatever. Amazing how strong the voice can be. "just get a beer, you only really like wine so with beer you won't overdo it" all kinds of stuff. But I didn't. I didn't do it. I came on here and read and posted. I was posting to try and help others but behind that was the selfish motive of helping myself too.

VICTORY! A small one albeit. But one week for me is such a huge milestone. I know that the struggle is very real and there will be many more dark days ahead. But I simply cannot wait to face them and win and have more mornings like this one.

An enormous thank you to all of you! Have a great day folks and stay sober, we can do this!

Macali

Hi meraviglios, fantastic, the first week and weeks are difficult. I am 43 days sober and find I have really good days and really bad days. I also broke down in tears on my second week sober. I came onto the SR website on that morning of two weeks sober and got so much support that I went out into my garden and just cried. A mix of emotions. Keep in there it is so worth it. Believe in yourself.

Barnet

Im on day three and I've never managed 4 days running in the last decade.
Well done on doing your first week!

Verte

Hi Mera, may I call you Mera...?

Good for you for getting through it. In the first weeks I had to tote my laptop everywhere with me. Especially when cooking and then when sitting and then when getting tired and almost falling asleep...well, I pretty much hung out here 24/7 as needed. And it worked! You are correct. This is the brutal time where staying physically and mentally occupied is a really great idea. Seriously, I had to do a lot of manual labor where I could see results and get a sense of accomplishment.

Keep doing what you are doing...this intensity will pass before you know it. Just visualize how it will feel to be free of the ball and chain! Freedom. YaY!

You are doing a great job. Such great spirit It's OK to swing from left to right emotionally. Go easy on yourself.

Eddiebuckle

Meraviglioso, congratulations on 7 days. The mood swings and sudden cravings can be rough in early sobriety, keep at it - they don't last forever, and get less and less frequent as the weeks go by. Keep up the good work!

Gilmer

That's wonderful, Meraviglioso!

Funtimefranky

Well done Mera! 1 week yay!

sthlondonab

Wow! Well done Mera. Doing great. How good to not have to worry about the night before and cry in a GOOD way rather than a bad one and be all anxious.

Keep pushing on!

FusterCluck

...and a big thank you to you for such an inspiring post.

Cheers, FC

Meraviglioso

Yes, please do! It is a difficult word even for me to remember how to type out. But it has such special meaning to me I wanted to use it despite the very Italian number of vowels in it

Meraviglioso

Day 3 was always my sticking point. i just could not get past day 3. But I did it! So can you!

HeadLump

A victory, yes, and not a small one at all but the foundation of all the others which will follow

Great post, mera!

Tonymblue

One week is great. Its such a huge milestone. Keep it going. You can do it.

Rosie88

That's great! That post made me smile! :-) congrats!

trachemys

Buon giorno, Mera.

There are no small victories.

SoberHoopsFan

7 days is still very touch and go. You chose sobriety last night, be proud of that. It will get easier with more time.

Elodie

Congratulations, Mera!!!! A week is awesome!

Hawkeye13

Hi Mera and well done on not giving in to the AV.
It's a sneaky little bugger isn't it?

That feeling of joy and hope gets bigger and better, or at least it did for me,
as time went along in my sobriety.

I am honestly to the point now where I actually don't want to drink, have no desire for it, and can't imagine going back.

This from someone who couldn't imagine a life without drinking or a good dinner without good wine.

sthlondonab

I know you are using SR as your primary support at the minute, so I dropped by on your post as I logged back in. Hope your day is good ! Keep going :-)