60 days
60 days
The struggles I've had lately have subsided and I think I am back on solid ground again ... just in time to collect my 60-day coin!
The journey is not easy, but it's very simple. I've got myself in trouble by complicating things, over-thinking things, trying to control things. In a sentence ... by forgetting why I'm here. I'm an alcoholic ... that's why I am here. It may sound strange to read that I "forget" that sometimes, and it's not that I truly forget that I am, but that I forget the depths to which I sank before coming here. My brain tends to block out the bad experiences, feelings, and actions of my active alcoholic years ... I only remember the relief that I felt when I had that first drink ... and I start to miss it. Of course I forget that it's never just one drink, it's many drinks and I forget that I turn into an idiot when I drink, I forget what the hangover feels like, I forget what I looked like and felt like, I forget the anxiety, guilt and desperation. I must NEVER forget all that goes along with that first drink ... because it's never just one drink.
I am gratefully and happily sober today, as for the last 60 days. I'm proud of it, but as I've said before, humble enough to know that I didn't do it alone. Thank you all for your support. I'll never be able to pay it back, so hopefully I can pay it forward and help others as much as you have all helped me. Have a wonderful sober evening, my friends
The journey is not easy, but it's very simple. I've got myself in trouble by complicating things, over-thinking things, trying to control things. In a sentence ... by forgetting why I'm here. I'm an alcoholic ... that's why I am here. It may sound strange to read that I "forget" that sometimes, and it's not that I truly forget that I am, but that I forget the depths to which I sank before coming here. My brain tends to block out the bad experiences, feelings, and actions of my active alcoholic years ... I only remember the relief that I felt when I had that first drink ... and I start to miss it. Of course I forget that it's never just one drink, it's many drinks and I forget that I turn into an idiot when I drink, I forget what the hangover feels like, I forget what I looked like and felt like, I forget the anxiety, guilt and desperation. I must NEVER forget all that goes along with that first drink ... because it's never just one drink.
I am gratefully and happily sober today, as for the last 60 days. I'm proud of it, but as I've said before, humble enough to know that I didn't do it alone. Thank you all for your support. I'll never be able to pay it back, so hopefully I can pay it forward and help others as much as you have all helped me. Have a wonderful sober evening, my friends
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