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It's 3:30pm here on day two. I KNOW I won't drink today. I need to keep that mentality.
When I saw my doctor she initially suggested tapering - having a small glass getting smaller each night. I told her I didn't think that was a good idea so I've got a low dose benzo to take if I'm feeling tempted - there is no way I would ever mix the two!
Thank you though
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Getting sober is a process - don't be hard on yourself. I don't know too many recovering alcoholics who were able to stop on the first attempt. Addictions are hard to break, but you're moving in the right direction. If you find you are unable to "stay stopped," but still desire to stop, consider reaching out for help to a service in your area. If anything, you can use your lapse as continued evidence that you are not in control of your drinking. That can be a motivator to realize that!
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I've got an appointment with the local service on Monday. I'm going to do this but just take it one day at a time.
The couple of drinks were so not worth losing 54 days. What a stupid thing to do...
The couple of drinks were so not worth losing 54 days. What a stupid thing to do...
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Just to add the initial suggestion of tapering was because I had a whole bottle. It hit me very hard as it had been so long since I'd touched alcohol and about 67 days since I'd had more than a glass. I said I felt like I needed a glass to 'make me feel better' so we discussed tapering. We then agreed it was better to have a supply of Ativan in case I'm feeling tempted.
There's no alcohol in the house. I took a benzo last night because I freaked myself out that I'd have severe withdrawals and die (mind of anxiety disorder kicking in there). Today I'm feeling ok so will probably pass - the last thing I need would to to start another addiction.
Thank you for all of the replies. It's taken me hours to get the courage to post this.
There's no alcohol in the house. I took a benzo last night because I freaked myself out that I'd have severe withdrawals and die (mind of anxiety disorder kicking in there). Today I'm feeling ok so will probably pass - the last thing I need would to to start another addiction.
Thank you for all of the replies. It's taken me hours to get the courage to post this.
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I'm far too black and white of a thinker to understand you're doctor's thinking here. Did you require tapering or benzo's 55 days ago?
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I'm doing ok though, by myself. They're treating my alcoholism as a symptom of my anxiety and it's also because they've updated my regular meds to help with the adjustment.
It's a new doctor (a psychiatrist) I'm seeing now.
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