I am at my lowest point
Marchia in Aeternum
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 11,094
It's hard to explain. Last year, when I got out of hand, I searched far and wide and found a method and got support from this place. I did good for a while, then fell and nearly died. I started fighting my way back. Got a job, moved, managed to stay in control until they downsized me. Wandered back an forth between sobiety, moderation, and full-fledged abuse.
In my sober moments, I was researching and analyzing. Figured out what I needed to do. Told my parents and sisters that, and as as soon as I got employed and insured I would put my plan in motion. A month later, they recognized that I was going downhill again. They said they would pay for my plan as long as I did it NOW.
One office visit later, I had a plan, a backup plan, and a prescription. I'm keeping my demon down with Rational Recovery, AVRT, and an anti-depressant. Just as I switched crutches from cigarettes to e-cigs to stop killing myself, I'll switch from booze to meds. If I'm lucky the a-d will help me kick nicotine and when I feel ready I can get of the meds.
You have to take advantage of the sober moments to take action. When you're drinking, the last thing you want to do is stop. You have to take advantage of everything you have access to so you only have to do this once. Once you're clear of it, you will be a bigger asset to the company. Once you're clear of it, you'll be a happier, healthier person.
In my sober moments, I was researching and analyzing. Figured out what I needed to do. Told my parents and sisters that, and as as soon as I got employed and insured I would put my plan in motion. A month later, they recognized that I was going downhill again. They said they would pay for my plan as long as I did it NOW.
One office visit later, I had a plan, a backup plan, and a prescription. I'm keeping my demon down with Rational Recovery, AVRT, and an anti-depressant. Just as I switched crutches from cigarettes to e-cigs to stop killing myself, I'll switch from booze to meds. If I'm lucky the a-d will help me kick nicotine and when I feel ready I can get of the meds.
You have to take advantage of the sober moments to take action. When you're drinking, the last thing you want to do is stop. You have to take advantage of everything you have access to so you only have to do this once. Once you're clear of it, you will be a bigger asset to the company. Once you're clear of it, you'll be a happier, healthier person.
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Join Date: May 2011
Posts: 98
So this is my true Day 1... I'm gonna make it through the workday without going crazy... and then I am going to come home and make tilapia for dinner... and then I am going to GO TO A MEETING instead of crack open a bottle! I can do this!!
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