Two weeks sober and happy.
So I have been lurking here for a few years. Several months ago I decidd to give up alcohol because my drinking was becoming daily and I was getting to black outs. This would result in me fighting with spouse. So I quit for 3 months. I felt pretty good. Then I took a trip with a good friend and had already planned to drink. The drinking was moderated and I continue drinking for about another month infrequently and moderately. I wasn't drinking during the work week only weekends. Then I drank so much one Sunday night I ended up not going to work. The bingeing was beginning. Then a week later I went to an event with free alcohol. Oh boy that was great! I proceeded to probably drink 8 shots, wine and don't remember the last half of the night and driving home. Jesus that scared the hell out of me.
That was it for me. It has been two weeks. I am doing it different this time bc I'm going to meetings and trying to work a program. Hasn't been easy. The first weekend went camping with the family and friends and the other moms went to the five dollar wine tasting. I was tempted, but I played the tape to the end. Wine then beer then whatever was available passing out and hungover at a camp site. Nope not gonna do that! Also I watched the moms come back have some food and not drink anymore. I never ever ever would do that. One mom even left a full beer in her camp chair. Who does that?! No alcoholics of course. Last night I went to a work function karaoke party. Luckily I have a close friend at work who is 5 years sober and knows my issues. I probably wouldn't have gone without him. Surprisingly I sang some songs and danced some and had a great time with no regrets, hangovers, or questions in my head about how I behaved. When I really looked around most people only had a drink or two which will never work for me. All or nothing! So I don't think it will be easy, but I'm grateful to have my Saturday hungover free! Also what also has been helping me is the "Bubble Hour" which is a broadcast for sober women. It's on iTunes and I find it helpful to listen to as I'm driving. Sorry for the long one! Here's to a sober Sunday!