So yesterday I drank again... grrrr... I got very angry at work and once home I drank... back to day 1 today again... Hope I can hold longer this time...
Might I suggest you take a stronger stance on the affirmative? This is not something that is easily accomplished, you need to make a decision to actually quit. Rationalizing with whatever else is going on in your life is just going to result in bouncing from one quit to the next. This seems really tiring in my opinion.