Day 1 again
Day 1 again
So yesterday instead of going to an AA meeting, I went and bought vodka and sat in my car and drank.
12 days down the drain.
I did call a lady at AA though, and she told me to go home and pour the rest of the vodka down the drain. I managed to drive home, very slowly (oh how stupid and irresponsible of me). My husband was very disappointed but not angry with me. I'm grateful for how well he took care of me. I slept for a few hours and then woke up with the WORST hangover I have EVER had in my life. I can't even describe the self loathing I felt, how ill and defeated. I poured the rest of the vodka down the drain with great satisfaction. I hate it. I don't want it in my life anymore.
So.... hello, Day 1. Please God let it be my last one.
12 days down the drain.
I did call a lady at AA though, and she told me to go home and pour the rest of the vodka down the drain. I managed to drive home, very slowly (oh how stupid and irresponsible of me). My husband was very disappointed but not angry with me. I'm grateful for how well he took care of me. I slept for a few hours and then woke up with the WORST hangover I have EVER had in my life. I can't even describe the self loathing I felt, how ill and defeated. I poured the rest of the vodka down the drain with great satisfaction. I hate it. I don't want it in my life anymore.
So.... hello, Day 1. Please God let it be my last one.
No point worrying about the past, it's in the past, can't be changed, whereas the future is ours to choose . . . go at it again but be sure to reach out for support BEFORE taking that first drink, it'll make all the difference!!
You both can do this!!
You both can do this!!
I'm glad you made it to 12 days. I'm currently on day 4 today. I hope to make it to 12 days.
Reading your posts these past days have helped me get this far. Please don't give up hope. You've helped me get to day four anewpage.
Great for posting. Please try again. You've got my support.
Be well and thank you.
Reading your posts these past days have helped me get this far. Please don't give up hope. You've helped me get to day four anewpage.
Great for posting. Please try again. You've got my support.
Be well and thank you.
You done good in phoning someone in AA at the time. All I can say is keep on trying, and yeah hangovers, drunk and all those things become very old, but old enough that its hard to change. good luck and u can do this.
Well Jimmy, glad you called someone and glad you are back. It's good your hubby is helping you through this too. Keep trying. Keep doing. You can lick this thing!
Hi Timmah, I was wondering about you. Haven't heard from you in a while. Are you getting back on the horse too?
Hi Timmah, I was wondering about you. Haven't heard from you in a while. Are you getting back on the horse too?
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