Let's Get a Little Crazy!!
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Let's Get a Little Crazy!!
Has it really been 6 months? That long? Doesn’t time just fly? . . . Well not really when your completely Sober, no numbness, no escapism, every hour, minute and second is lived in the here and now, there’s no hiding away, living life head on, and it can be a scary place, feeling every emotion, stress, the ups and downs of life, you gotta be crazy to live this way. But isn't that normal? a healthier way to live?
But that is exactly what I did 6 months ago, I got a little crazy, I said to myself, let’s see what happens, what have I got to loose? as I was blinded by another hangover and migraine on a Saturday morning last November, sure I made the usual, “that’s it no more alcohol” self pity speeches to myself, but this was different, by that evening I thought about trying out a new experiment, a Sober one, what would happen if I didn't drink tonight? This Saturday night? What would happen if I didn’t go to the liquor store? Just sat in with a movie and a cup of tea? What would happen??
Well I tried it out, I got a little crazy, I put the kettle on and settled in for the night, stone cold Sober, I couldn’t sleep for anything, but as the hours ticked past, and I watched box set series after series, the sun came up and the next morning I had no hangover.
Right there and then I knew I needed to make the change, and not only that, I had hope that it could be done, that imaginary line which created the fear of Sobriety had been erased, I had a belief that it could be done.
For the previous 5 years I was killing myself, I had lost myself in a bottle, hated my life, hated myself, didn’t have any ambition, didn’t care if life ended, what did I have to loose? Let’s drink. The endless cycle of life, job, hangover, job, hangover became my life, I was on the downward spiral, a progression of addiction, and a train crash was inevitable unless I hit the breaks and pulled up at a station.
Some ask do you attend meetings? and I say no, everyone needs to find their own path, SR has been my support, and my philosophy has been remain Sober TODAY, if I can do that, just make it to bedtime, tomorrow will be hangover free, keep it simple, some ask how about that one drink? not for me, moderation is a lie that would see me back on that downward spiral of progression, it’s Sobriety or a short life, it’s that simple, I know my weakness which has become my strength.
Some ask, how do you enjoy social events without alcohol? I now have more fun, weddings, work nights out, sports events, I can now remember every part of the night, able to drive home, not have any regrets in the morning, and not constantly throughout the night worry about whether I’ve brought enough cash to get that last round of jaeger bombs in, the stress of facilitating drinking is much greater I would argue.
What is the future? Sobriety is key, whether I see old age or not, I can at least say I lived my life according to my plan, not my addiction, my dad was an alcoholic and he died a cruel death, but we all still have the opportunity to decide how the movie ends.
However I couldn’t have done it without SR. In the last 6 months I have got to know some amazing people, you don’t know how much you all mean to me, the regular posters know who you all are.
Here’s to the next 6 months, and to those just starting out, walk through that door of Sobriety, no matter how fearful it seems, go a little crazy, but I assure you the rewards are plentiful!!
PK
But that is exactly what I did 6 months ago, I got a little crazy, I said to myself, let’s see what happens, what have I got to loose? as I was blinded by another hangover and migraine on a Saturday morning last November, sure I made the usual, “that’s it no more alcohol” self pity speeches to myself, but this was different, by that evening I thought about trying out a new experiment, a Sober one, what would happen if I didn't drink tonight? This Saturday night? What would happen if I didn’t go to the liquor store? Just sat in with a movie and a cup of tea? What would happen??
Well I tried it out, I got a little crazy, I put the kettle on and settled in for the night, stone cold Sober, I couldn’t sleep for anything, but as the hours ticked past, and I watched box set series after series, the sun came up and the next morning I had no hangover.
Right there and then I knew I needed to make the change, and not only that, I had hope that it could be done, that imaginary line which created the fear of Sobriety had been erased, I had a belief that it could be done.
For the previous 5 years I was killing myself, I had lost myself in a bottle, hated my life, hated myself, didn’t have any ambition, didn’t care if life ended, what did I have to loose? Let’s drink. The endless cycle of life, job, hangover, job, hangover became my life, I was on the downward spiral, a progression of addiction, and a train crash was inevitable unless I hit the breaks and pulled up at a station.
Some ask do you attend meetings? and I say no, everyone needs to find their own path, SR has been my support, and my philosophy has been remain Sober TODAY, if I can do that, just make it to bedtime, tomorrow will be hangover free, keep it simple, some ask how about that one drink? not for me, moderation is a lie that would see me back on that downward spiral of progression, it’s Sobriety or a short life, it’s that simple, I know my weakness which has become my strength.
Some ask, how do you enjoy social events without alcohol? I now have more fun, weddings, work nights out, sports events, I can now remember every part of the night, able to drive home, not have any regrets in the morning, and not constantly throughout the night worry about whether I’ve brought enough cash to get that last round of jaeger bombs in, the stress of facilitating drinking is much greater I would argue.
What is the future? Sobriety is key, whether I see old age or not, I can at least say I lived my life according to my plan, not my addiction, my dad was an alcoholic and he died a cruel death, but we all still have the opportunity to decide how the movie ends.
However I couldn’t have done it without SR. In the last 6 months I have got to know some amazing people, you don’t know how much you all mean to me, the regular posters know who you all are.
Here’s to the next 6 months, and to those just starting out, walk through that door of Sobriety, no matter how fearful it seems, go a little crazy, but I assure you the rewards are plentiful!!
PK
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You are awesome.
Woop, Woop! Chugga, Chugga, Chugga!
Thanks PK.
Your post is going on my refrigerator as well. At this rate with all this inspiration my fridge will look like a wrapped Christmas present in the summertime!!
Keep gettin' your kettle on...sounds like a great life to me
Thanks PK.
Your post is going on my refrigerator as well. At this rate with all this inspiration my fridge will look like a wrapped Christmas present in the summertime!!
Keep gettin' your kettle on...sounds like a great life to me
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Great post PK and Congrats!
You are correct, even though I believe in
the 12 steps and AA has helped hundreds
of thousands maintain sobriety, it is not
for everyone.
You have to do what works for you.
In a way, this site is like a huge AA meeting.
Interaction with others that are recovering is
paramount.
You are correct, even though I believe in
the 12 steps and AA has helped hundreds
of thousands maintain sobriety, it is not
for everyone.
You have to do what works for you.
In a way, this site is like a huge AA meeting.
Interaction with others that are recovering is
paramount.
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