Fed up and lonely
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Fed up and lonely
It's Saturday night...after 8 pm and I am at home with my mom.
I am as the title suggests...
I was looking at Facebook, and quickly logged out as it seems that everyone is having an exciting Saturday night.
The rain is lashing and the wind is howling.
My mom and I just had a row and she was screaming at me that "you're so irresponsible". In the past I actually would have cried when she gets into one of her rages, but tonight I just stayed calm and said "I am sorry that you feel that way but..." she actually calmed down and asked if I wanted a cup of tea!!
I was just rooting through a cupboard looking for chocolate...and I found a green glass bottle of olive oil. For a split second I thought wouldn't it be nice if this was wine? I am over six months and this is the first time in a while that I have had this kind of thought. It caught me by surprise. Six months is too long to flush away.
I don't know what to do with myself right now. Sorry for rambling but thanks for reading...
I am as the title suggests...
I was looking at Facebook, and quickly logged out as it seems that everyone is having an exciting Saturday night.
The rain is lashing and the wind is howling.
My mom and I just had a row and she was screaming at me that "you're so irresponsible". In the past I actually would have cried when she gets into one of her rages, but tonight I just stayed calm and said "I am sorry that you feel that way but..." she actually calmed down and asked if I wanted a cup of tea!!
I was just rooting through a cupboard looking for chocolate...and I found a green glass bottle of olive oil. For a split second I thought wouldn't it be nice if this was wine? I am over six months and this is the first time in a while that I have had this kind of thought. It caught me by surprise. Six months is too long to flush away.
I don't know what to do with myself right now. Sorry for rambling but thanks for reading...
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I LOVE when it's pouring rain and stormy out. Unfortunately all it does is make me want wine to go with it. I've switched to tea and whenever I'm drinking it all I can think is how much I wish it could be wine too lol 6 months is great!!
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You're doing so well. There's nothing that a drink will make better.
I get lonely and fed up too. But, I no longer drink over it. It's a part of life. I'd rather be alone and fed up than drunk and alone and fed up.
Best to you. This to shall pass and congratulations on six months.
I get lonely and fed up too. But, I no longer drink over it. It's a part of life. I'd rather be alone and fed up than drunk and alone and fed up.
Best to you. This to shall pass and congratulations on six months.
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Chin up Tetra!! . . . 6 months is Fantastic!! 
May I say, your mom is wrong, you are responsible, for 6 months you have been disciplined, strong willed and maintained your Sobriety!! . . . if that isn't responsible then what is and your mom doesn't understand that!!
But it's not her fault, it's a difference in perspective, just be confident in your own convictions!!
May I say, your mom is wrong, you are responsible, for 6 months you have been disciplined, strong willed and maintained your Sobriety!! . . . if that isn't responsible then what is and your mom doesn't understand that!!
But it's not her fault, it's a difference in perspective, just be confident in your own convictions!!
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Tetra, I have no earthly idea whom you are. I have never met you; I have never conversed with you for a single moment; but, I LOVE YOU! That's right. I love you and care about you! I have been out of work as well (6 months). The interviews come, but the offers don't? (am I right?). It's ok! Coming from a newbie this sounds stupid, but I want you to be happy. Don't drink! You have something so precious that many of us can't even dream of having. It hurts I am sure; but it hurts worse at the bottom, doesn't it? Keep it GOING!
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Tetra, drinking will not help to get you a job!. Instead of drinking try to enjoy the time you have off work (treat it like its a vacation) and keep looking. Maybe send out more applications. Drinking and going back will not land you the job and change your life for the better. At least in my experience it never did.
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