Fell of the wagon with a giant thud
Closing the gates of Oblivion
Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: OK, USA
Posts: 273
Really hoping you come back Skye. You are already missed. Some of us don't always say much but it is people like you that post and we read it and gain insight from it. You lead by example on kindness to the newbs and thoughtful posts to those in need.
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Join Date: May 2013
Location: Mid-Atlantic
Posts: 552
Hi Skye. I'm hoping you're on the mend and will soon feel better. We all fall down sometimes. Sometimes people do need a kick, but never while they're down. Lotsa hands reaching out to you here... mine too. I know it's hard right now, but things will get better. Thinking of you. Hang in there.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 169
I think a big reason a lot of us got into this mess (alcohol/drugs) in the first place is that we were looking for a sense of love and belonging, and couldn't find it. So numbing the whole deal out put a big heavy cloud over it, and we didn't even need to be courageous, because we'd already given up, using the ugly mask.
By no longer being vulnerable, we give up the fear of shame and worthiness, but also dump joy, creativity, belonging and love along with it.
For me, I need to learn to invest in relationships that may or may not work out. We can't control others, and comfort can come in that there really is no predictability. I have to find a way to believe in myself (corny I know).
A Tibetan monk i heard on NPR a bit ago, said we all have one thing we can count on, and that is gratitude. And gratitude that we have every moment that we have right in front of us. He gave an example of a man wrongfully convicted and sent to prison for 37 years. He was released, and when asked about his experience, he said it was "glorious". Yeah, I find it hard to believe. Wealthy people aren't necessarily happy, and poor people aren't necessarily sad.
We all have the next moment, and everything will work out, with gratitude.
By no longer being vulnerable, we give up the fear of shame and worthiness, but also dump joy, creativity, belonging and love along with it.
For me, I need to learn to invest in relationships that may or may not work out. We can't control others, and comfort can come in that there really is no predictability. I have to find a way to believe in myself (corny I know).
A Tibetan monk i heard on NPR a bit ago, said we all have one thing we can count on, and that is gratitude. And gratitude that we have every moment that we have right in front of us. He gave an example of a man wrongfully convicted and sent to prison for 37 years. He was released, and when asked about his experience, he said it was "glorious". Yeah, I find it hard to believe. Wealthy people aren't necessarily happy, and poor people aren't necessarily sad.
We all have the next moment, and everything will work out, with gratitude.
Kaleidoscope eyes
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: London
Posts: 5,243
Originally Posted by Skye2 
Not really babes - son's bday and not seen him for 5 years thanks to my ex. The kids and I spent 9 years running from one womens aid refuge to another due to his abuse of me and the kids. 5 years ago he tracked us down and turned them against me! I am Skye the invincible though - I dish out advice and hurt inside as I'm a private person. It's all good though - got guitar out and Eric Clapton on you tube - i'll survive and thanks SO much for caring Xx
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,782
Originally Posted by Skye2
Yeah I've learnt Hevyn - learnt that no-one gives a flying fxxx about anyone on here - it's only me who ever gave a damn and tried to help people. Please delete my profile- I won't be signing in again.
A Little Wingy
Join Date: Sep 2012
Posts: 923
It's really sad how drinking, puts everything in a different perspective. NEGATIVE, and you can't see the light because of all the darkness that surrounds you.
Skye it's a shame you can't see, people do care in here
Get back in that wagon, strap yourself down, you've got some work to do.
Take care of yourself.
Skye it's a shame you can't see, people do care in here
Get back in that wagon, strap yourself down, you've got some work to do.
Take care of yourself.
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