Greeting from the depths of hell! If you aren't sober please read, its time to quit
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Greeting from the depths of hell! If you aren't sober please read, its time to quit
Here I am in the throes of the most insidious habit one can imagine, but tonight I have scored a win and won't drink.
On the 28th of last month, I decided I can't drink anymore my health, family and life dependent on it. I went 2 days, relapsed and then went 19 days, had a bad life event and relapsed again, and am now sober again for 4 days. I lurked for a few days, that makes up the difference.
I now realize that I am weak, winning a battle doesn't mean I've won
the war. Thoughts of alcohol will persist into my future. Its blatantly obvious now, to me, I am an addict and I have a very serious problem
I have many a health issue, this last week, I saw a GP, but not visited the ER like I should..... I am scared, I don't want bad news, I don't want a bill I can't afford. Most of all, I don't want to disappointment friends and family I've kept this a secret from.
However, despite my current problem, I want to bring a message of hope to the lurkers, I know its sucks right now my friends. I know you can't control your habit, I know that you think tomorrow can't be better than today, but I am here to tell you it can!
In the last 30 days I've spent most of them sober, I've reconnected with my immediate family told them the truth and ask for help, all of them have been supportive. I know I may slip again, but I've learned not to dwell on my failure and only the positive.
Know that I've received a great deal of support from my friend here on SR, and though I have my short comings, I will BEAT this habit. Dark days, will lead to a brighter future, and no matter what, even if I die, I will die knowing I tried to beat this. Knowing I wanted a better future and made every attempt possible to be a better man.
You can be a better man/ women today, by merely imagining a future where sobriety exist. I would love for you to be sober today, tomorrow and on, but if your not I won't judge you! I merely want you to consider the consequences and try your best to do whats best for you. Don't lurk, become a participant, I want you to and so does everyone on this site. I've slipped many times this month, and I need your support, just as much as you need mine, SO please, please please, come help me, help you, help me! We will get sober together! Thanks for reading, have a good one all.
On the 28th of last month, I decided I can't drink anymore my health, family and life dependent on it. I went 2 days, relapsed and then went 19 days, had a bad life event and relapsed again, and am now sober again for 4 days. I lurked for a few days, that makes up the difference.
I now realize that I am weak, winning a battle doesn't mean I've won
the war. Thoughts of alcohol will persist into my future. Its blatantly obvious now, to me, I am an addict and I have a very serious problem
I have many a health issue, this last week, I saw a GP, but not visited the ER like I should..... I am scared, I don't want bad news, I don't want a bill I can't afford. Most of all, I don't want to disappointment friends and family I've kept this a secret from.
However, despite my current problem, I want to bring a message of hope to the lurkers, I know its sucks right now my friends. I know you can't control your habit, I know that you think tomorrow can't be better than today, but I am here to tell you it can!
In the last 30 days I've spent most of them sober, I've reconnected with my immediate family told them the truth and ask for help, all of them have been supportive. I know I may slip again, but I've learned not to dwell on my failure and only the positive.
Know that I've received a great deal of support from my friend here on SR, and though I have my short comings, I will BEAT this habit. Dark days, will lead to a brighter future, and no matter what, even if I die, I will die knowing I tried to beat this. Knowing I wanted a better future and made every attempt possible to be a better man.
You can be a better man/ women today, by merely imagining a future where sobriety exist. I would love for you to be sober today, tomorrow and on, but if your not I won't judge you! I merely want you to consider the consequences and try your best to do whats best for you. Don't lurk, become a participant, I want you to and so does everyone on this site. I've slipped many times this month, and I need your support, just as much as you need mine, SO please, please please, come help me, help you, help me! We will get sober together! Thanks for reading, have a good one all.
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Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy 
I now realize that I am weak, winning a battle doesn't mean I've won
the war. Thoughts of alcohol will persist into my future. Its blatantly obvious now, to me, I am an addict and I have a very serious problem
the war. Thoughts of alcohol will persist into my future. Its blatantly obvious now, to me, I am an addict and I have a very serious problem
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Hi and good for you posting how it is. For me I constantly needed to remember the pain of drinking and trying to stop. Each day it becomes better if we let it by not thinking alcoholically by saying such things as "I'll just have one etc."
I needed to keep saying to myself "if I don't have the first drink I won't have to get sober AGAIN." And it's a fact.
BE WELL
I needed to keep saying to myself "if I don't have the first drink I won't have to get sober AGAIN." And it's a fact.
BE WELL
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Its blatantly obvious now, to me, I am an addict and I have a very serious problem
I know you can't control your habit
told them the truth and ask for help, all of them have been supportive. I know I may slip again, but I've learned not to dwell on my failure and only the positive.
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Great post! But I disagree that you're weak. You've just accepted your limitations, is all. You'll never make the NBA either (I assume) - does that mean you're weak? No, of course it doesn't. You, like me, will never be able to be a social drinker. Who cares? No big deal.. we just have to quit totally. It's been done a million times before, by completely average people.
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