One week! One week!
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One week! One week!
I am so happy. This is the longest I've quit in years. It's my first try and I'm feeling pretty good. I don't have any cravings and I didn't withdrawn. After reading large excerpts of Under the Influence, I wonder if I was physically addicted to alcohol. Psychologically? No doubt. For me, there was no difference. I was addicted. I also never got addicted to cigarettes either. Smoked for in the my early twenties and just decided to quit for no particular reason.
It doesn't matter at the end of the day. I don't ever want to go back. I was in a situation this week where I was offered an innocent glass of wine. I was able to say no. And I was left alone with a full bar and could have easily drunk. I actually stared at the bottle, opened it, smelled it and confidently put the cap back on.
I can't believe the difference between last week and this week in terms of energy and attitude. I'm am much happier. I am actually living life, partaking and not just sitting around sulking. Maybe I'm just really excited right now and it will come crashing down.
These last 2 to 3 months though were miserable and clouded over by a constant sick cycle of addiction.
I just wanted to mark it down here just in case I'm tempted.
Physical and emotional changes:
my stomach has deflated to a great extent but I've still got a muffin top
my urine has turned clear. It was dark due to dehydration
to be victorian-I am now having for the first time in a while solid movements
bags under eyes have improved so much. I doubt they will totally go away because of my age
depression is totally lifted
anxiety gone
I actually have the drive to do things like shop, cook, clean, all things that when I was drinking lightly, the drink used to make me more excited and even motive me more. That stopped a long time ago because like everyone here says, the disease progressive until it has you over a barrel
I have not used AA or anything at this point. At this point, this board is all I need. If I change my mind I will go to AA. lots of regret over all the time that was wasted thinking I needed alcohol to do just about everything from cooking to shopping, to cleaning, to interacting with the kids to walking the dog the few times I did it, to taking a drive in the passenger seat to interacting.
I am afraid of some social interactions without my booze since it always made things easier. I guess I'll just have to learn. I never want to go back to that life.
THANK YOU EVERYONE. I am not leaving of course, just celebrating.
It doesn't matter at the end of the day. I don't ever want to go back. I was in a situation this week where I was offered an innocent glass of wine. I was able to say no. And I was left alone with a full bar and could have easily drunk. I actually stared at the bottle, opened it, smelled it and confidently put the cap back on.
I can't believe the difference between last week and this week in terms of energy and attitude. I'm am much happier. I am actually living life, partaking and not just sitting around sulking. Maybe I'm just really excited right now and it will come crashing down.
These last 2 to 3 months though were miserable and clouded over by a constant sick cycle of addiction.
I just wanted to mark it down here just in case I'm tempted.
Physical and emotional changes:
my stomach has deflated to a great extent but I've still got a muffin top
my urine has turned clear. It was dark due to dehydration
to be victorian-I am now having for the first time in a while solid movements
bags under eyes have improved so much. I doubt they will totally go away because of my age
depression is totally lifted
anxiety gone
I actually have the drive to do things like shop, cook, clean, all things that when I was drinking lightly, the drink used to make me more excited and even motive me more. That stopped a long time ago because like everyone here says, the disease progressive until it has you over a barrel
I have not used AA or anything at this point. At this point, this board is all I need. If I change my mind I will go to AA. lots of regret over all the time that was wasted thinking I needed alcohol to do just about everything from cooking to shopping, to cleaning, to interacting with the kids to walking the dog the few times I did it, to taking a drive in the passenger seat to interacting.
I am afraid of some social interactions without my booze since it always made things easier. I guess I'll just have to learn. I never want to go back to that life.
THANK YOU EVERYONE. I am not leaving of course, just celebrating.
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