Jabbadabutt

I too used to say to myself all the time that I just wanted to be "normal" and not be under the weight of the booze. I tried for years to figure out the magical formula. Change the liquor, chnage the time of day, change the location, make new rules, break them, make newer rules. As long as I allowed myself to make new rules I thought I was in control....when in reality I was out of control. I realized after much trial and error (not proud of that) that the only way to try to be "normal" was to not drink....at all. And now 3 years later I feel very "normal" and see people that drink as "not normal" as a good majority seem to have "alcoholic" signs not too far under the surface.