Bryan654

So I am on day three now. My therapist, who I have only gone to for 2 weeks, told me to go to AA meetings every day to stay sober. I haven't gone to one yet however I do spend a good hour or so on this site every day so that helps a bit. I am however a binge drinker, going weeks without drinking then going missing for a whole weekend. I think I am going to go to meetings on Friday and Saturday nights in order to not feel lonely and bored. Once the week hits I am fine.
I just woke up from my third sober sleep in a row and I have to say that it is pretty great to not wake up feeling like ****. I don't drink every day but I did smoke pot every day to get to sleep and that has an effect on you. It turns out sleep is pretty important!
I went for my weekly beer with my father last night, except I had water and he had a beer. I told him that I wasn't going to drink at ( Canadian) Thanksgiving this week and he said he was proud of that decision. I feel good about the people I have said no to in the last 3 days. I thought they would react differently but they just say "ok". Something that has gotten in the way of my sobriety before has been " people pleasing" or thinking that I would offend someone by not drinking. I will post again at one week, but even after three days I can feel a difference in the way I am feeling . Thanks

GotGrace

That is great, Bryan. I think that the more people we tell, the more committed we become. Sounds like your dad is a keeper! Good idea to stay busy on weekend nights, too.

JadeSatellite

I worried about people not agreeing with my choice to abstain too. I guess that whole college-thought process ("Cmon man, ya gotta drink!") is still alive and well, even if it isn't rooted in reality.

In truth, I have found, like you, that people I say no to are proud and are totally cool with it. Good for you for keeping up your will power!

ScottFromWI

Nice work Bryan. And i'm glad you've realized that the worry that others might care that you aren't drinking is a flat out lie that merely exists in the alcoholic mind. Keep up the good fight!

Bryan654

That being said. I would murder some baby ducklings for a joint. Straight up. That is going to be the hard one to kick. I feel like my last post made it sound like everything is going great, it's not.