I fell and can't get up! Help please!
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Thank you, been in the bed for 12 hrs....I HAVE to go to class in an hr....u know that feeling when your body feels like its been hit by a train? Thank you for all the kind words....Day 1
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Ugh, MN. Been there.
This was not pleasant but when I first started I had double digits under my belt and then said wth. The minute I started I felt like cr*p again. As in hated myself. It didn't take long. Here was the unpleasant part. I focused on how rotten I felt while i was doing it. Physically and mentally. Took all the fun out of it...as if there was ever any fun about it.
Put it down and then refocus. You can do it.
If anything, I learned that what I focus on is my reality. Just me but that has been helpful. I learned to be able to switch from an all or nothing view of life from that lesson.
Again, you can do it!
This was not pleasant but when I first started I had double digits under my belt and then said wth. The minute I started I felt like cr*p again. As in hated myself. It didn't take long. Here was the unpleasant part. I focused on how rotten I felt while i was doing it. Physically and mentally. Took all the fun out of it...as if there was ever any fun about it.
Put it down and then refocus. You can do it.
If anything, I learned that what I focus on is my reality. Just me but that has been helpful. I learned to be able to switch from an all or nothing view of life from that lesson.
Again, you can do it!
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That's the spirit MN! New day!
Now take that train wreck feeling and put it where the blame needs to go....right on the alcohol. Point the bad feelings towards the alcohol and the hope feelings towards you. That's what I did.
I also looked at it as I gave that cr*p one last shot to do me right and it failed me once again...for the last time. It was what turned me around for good.
Staying away from it was just my first part. My second part is figuring out a way to keep it going. Probably what they mean by a plan. I get it now.
Bad feelings...alcohol.
Good feelings...the real me.
In between feelings...just life.
Find ways to be reminded and grateful it doesn't have to go back to that...my plan.
We all fall and we all need a hand to get back up. Grab one. There are a lot of people here who helped me.
Now take that train wreck feeling and put it where the blame needs to go....right on the alcohol. Point the bad feelings towards the alcohol and the hope feelings towards you. That's what I did.
I also looked at it as I gave that cr*p one last shot to do me right and it failed me once again...for the last time. It was what turned me around for good.
Staying away from it was just my first part. My second part is figuring out a way to keep it going. Probably what they mean by a plan. I get it now.
Bad feelings...alcohol.
Good feelings...the real me.
In between feelings...just life.
Find ways to be reminded and grateful it doesn't have to go back to that...my plan.
We all fall and we all need a hand to get back up. Grab one. There are a lot of people here who helped me.
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So, I am sorry to say I bought a pint to get to class and yes, drank and drove, only made it thru one class and left and bought another...I have to make tonight my last...I want to celebrate and grab more but that will only make AM worse...its 1:46 pm...I can get some sleep, work, and be in class by 8 am, so behind....ugh...I am trying, just when you get so far beyond...where do you start? I work nights, 11-7am, classes M-Th for rest of week and with my binge am over a week behind....I really could use one more pint and then just get thru homework but not going to buy anymore...
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MN...you start again with just saying I won't drink for the next five minutes...and then 5 more...and on we go.
Don't allow the slip to become an excuse for giving back in to the bad choices.
You can do it.
Don't allow the slip to become an excuse for giving back in to the bad choices.
You can do it.
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One of my last drinking days I fell flat on my face in front of the bar I wanted to go to, on concrete, broke my nose, split my lip to where you could see cartilage or whatever the internal meat is called. That saved my teeth though. But anyway, holy crap. I know how you must feel
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
I have to be honest...it doesn't sound that whatever you're doing now to not drink is working too great MN...
what about trying to find more support MN?
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what about trying to find more support MN?
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maybe thats the problem then - are you too overloaded with things you need to do?
the point is - drinking isn't helping.
I spent a heck of a lot of time on my drinking - getting drink, drinking, getting over that drinking, thinking about more drinking...
If you need to make time for your recovery, then you need to MN.
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the point is - drinking isn't helping.
I spent a heck of a lot of time on my drinking - getting drink, drinking, getting over that drinking, thinking about more drinking...
If you need to make time for your recovery, then you need to MN.
D
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[QUOTE=Dee74;4172781]I have to be honest...it doesn't sound that whatever you're doing now to not drink is working too great MN...
what about trying to find more support MN?
like what?? im at my end...don't mean to snap on you but family...done, no friends...daughter?? no idea?? that's why I asked for opinions on life after death n just starting over....im tired
what about trying to find more support MN?
like what?? im at my end...don't mean to snap on you but family...done, no friends...daughter?? no idea?? that's why I asked for opinions on life after death n just starting over....im tired
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Originally Posted by Dee74
maybe thats the problem then - are you too overloaded with things you need to do?
the point is - drinking isn't helping.
I spent a heck of a lot of time on my drinking - getting drink, drinking, getting over that drinking, thinking about more drinking...
If you need to make time for your recovery, then you need to MN.
D
the point is - drinking isn't helping.
I spent a heck of a lot of time on my drinking - getting drink, drinking, getting over that drinking, thinking about more drinking...
If you need to make time for your recovery, then you need to MN.
D
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Hi MN, I'm so glad that you're back. You have a lot on your plate right now. Could you take a semester off of school to work on recovery? Maybe find an intensive outpatient program so that you could still work to pay bills? I was in an IOP a few years ago (not alcohol-related completely but I guess alcohol led me there) and it was ENORMOUSLY helpful. You get counseling and meet others who are also struggling. I felt a connection to people there.
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I am researching now for possible places and will call in AM to see if I will loose all my tuition or can take same classes next semester...thank u for all of your support,,,i have been on google, not a lot of places take VA SSI Insurance...still trying...
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MN, even if you lose all your tuition, it might be worth it. You are struggling to get a handle on this and the stress is making it worse. If you finish out the semester but do poorly and spiral further down because of drinking, it's the same outcome--a lost semester. Take care of yourself first and then focus on that other stuff.
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