I never thought I was an alcoholic
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I never thought I was an alcoholic
...until I realized that normal drinkers don't wonder if they're alcoholics. Nor do they wake up on weekends and drink out of boredom. Or go home at lunch to sneak a drink. Or drink just enough to keep a buzz and then drive around town to run errands. Or dump a bottle of whiskey out of self-loathing one night (while drunk) only to restock the next day.
All things I've done in the past two months. Day 2 for me. At least I woke up this morning without the brain fog of the previous night's drinking binge. I have cravings, but I keep reminding myself that if I give in, life will suck tomorrow. And I would likely give in again tomorrow, which means back into the same pattern of feeling like crap every morning.
All things I've done in the past two months. Day 2 for me. At least I woke up this morning without the brain fog of the previous night's drinking binge. I have cravings, but I keep reminding myself that if I give in, life will suck tomorrow. And I would likely give in again tomorrow, which means back into the same pattern of feeling like crap every morning.
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Yep, realizing that I wasn't a normal drinker, never was a normal drinker, and was never, ever going to be one, was a breakthrough for me. It made me realize I could never drink again.
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Ready as I've ever been, Hevyn. At least I have my own apartment and don't live with my alcoholic brother and borderline alcoholic father anymore. 
That makes it a lot less difficult to romanticize that warm burning sensation of the first drink. I can look at it more objectively.
That makes it a lot less difficult to romanticize that warm burning sensation of the first drink. I can look at it more objectively.
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Congrats on day 2 and coming to terms with you're drinking. <3
I find "normal drinkers" so bewildering, lol. How do they do it? How are they happy with one or two drinks? I shall never know That's ok though.
Glad you are here Imabuleva. This place is just amazing. Recovering alcoholics/addicts are some of the kindest, sweetest, supportive, positive people I've ever met. Stick around, it does get better!!
I find "normal drinkers" so bewildering, lol. How do they do it? How are they happy with one or two drinks? I shall never know
That's ok though.Glad you are here Imabuleva. This place is just amazing. Recovering alcoholics/addicts are some of the kindest, sweetest, supportive, positive people I've ever met. Stick around, it does get better!!
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Congrats on seeing it. It took me a long while to see it too...even though it was really obvious to everyone else.
Hevyn just told me that joy will come from freedom from alcohol.
So I wish for you too...
Hevyn just told me that joy will come from freedom from alcohol.
So I wish for you too...
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Originally Posted by KristyCat 
I find "normal drinkers" so bewildering, lol. How do they do it? How are they happy with one or two drinks? I shall never know That's ok though.
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This is so true. I am day 23 and have had this moment today when i realize that i do not have the same relationship to alcohol as my friends who enjoy it but in a totally different way. I don't think people really understand like people here do. Thanks all for helping me feel sane.
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