struggling today
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
Join Date: Aug 2011
Posts: 2,887
My latest trick when I loose my footing is -
If I drink right now I will get pleasure and satisfaction. Those will last, at best, an few hours. As my brain starts to fight the poison I am feeding my body, it will require me to continue to drink to release dopamine to stave off withdrawals. Withdrawal is inevitable. How far am I willing to go to get that few hours of a fix ? Because I will certainly not feel better, after I stop drinking, for atleast 3 WHOLE DAYS (more like 5 now).
Is 2 hours of pleasure worth 72 plus hours of misery ?
Seems like an awfully sh1tty return on my investment.
If I drink right now I will get pleasure and satisfaction. Those will last, at best, an few hours. As my brain starts to fight the poison I am feeding my body, it will require me to continue to drink to release dopamine to stave off withdrawals. Withdrawal is inevitable. How far am I willing to go to get that few hours of a fix ? Because I will certainly not feel better, after I stop drinking, for atleast 3 WHOLE DAYS (more like 5 now).
Is 2 hours of pleasure worth 72 plus hours of misery ?
Seems like an awfully sh1tty return on my investment.
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: Woodstock,New York
Posts: 140
I struggle too,I just have to tell myself that it's just a feeling that'll pass.i woke up this morning wanting to take opiates but I didn't,I called someone and got through the feeling.i think when we tell on ourselfs it's the best thing,this way we r not keeping secrets! Good luck on you road to recovery...
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: Australia
Posts: 11,351
I made it ! Thank you all very much for your support last night , those words meant so much , especially the 2 hours of high for 5 days of crap...oh god , noone knows that more than i ...words are very powerful xoxoxo much love
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Originally Posted by alphaomega 
my latest trick when i loose my footing is -
if i drink right now i will get pleasure and satisfaction. Those will last, at best, an few hours. As my brain starts to fight the poison i am feeding my body, it will require me to continue to drink to release dopamine to stave off withdrawals. Withdrawal is inevitable. How far am i willing to go to get that few hours of a fix ? Because i will certainly not feel better, after i stop drinking, for atleast 3 whole days (more like 5 now).
Is 2 hours of pleasure worth 72 plus hours of misery ?
Seems like an awfully sh1tty return on my investment.
if i drink right now i will get pleasure and satisfaction. Those will last, at best, an few hours. As my brain starts to fight the poison i am feeding my body, it will require me to continue to drink to release dopamine to stave off withdrawals. Withdrawal is inevitable. How far am i willing to go to get that few hours of a fix ? Because i will certainly not feel better, after i stop drinking, for atleast 3 whole days (more like 5 now).
Is 2 hours of pleasure worth 72 plus hours of misery ?
Seems like an awfully sh1tty return on my investment.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Posts: 544
Originally Posted by SnoozyQ
I made it ! Thank you all very much for your support last night , those words meant so much , especially the 2 hours of high for 5 days of crap...oh god , noone knows that more than i ...words are very powerful xoxoxo much love
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