DS777

Dear All

Thank you for your kind messages and help yesterday, I did not top myself and I've woken up feeling a bit more "normal" today AND most importantly, sober!

I felt really dreadful yesterday, especially after embarrassing myself, yet again, and feeling my shame exposed and out there for all the world to see. I always despise myself after an episode and the self hate gets worse each time.

My AV is my brick wall, I always get to it and then I just can't break through.

Someone said yesterday I need to stop fighting it but accept it instead and someone else said I need to get more artillery to fight it.

I think I'm going to need a bazooka!!

x

Dee74

I found fighting my inner addict was pretty futile - no matter who 'won' I lost.

Acceptance - of who I was and of what I needed to do - worked a lot better for me.

Removing drinking as an problem solving option forced me to look at what other options I had...it was a real eye opener

D

Erratic

Good luck today hun, dee has gave some good advice, wish i could give some. I am at the same point yet again with ya. So bring on day 1!