Triple Digits and Feeling Fine:-)
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Triple Digits and Feeling Fine:-)
So I hit triple digits today with 100 days sobriety, and I was contemplating on what best describes how I feel:
Physically healthier...true, I have lost more than 28 pounds in the last 100 days.
Proud...yes I suppose, God knows this sobriety gig sure is hard work!
But I would say that what I feel most is "Control". I have control over my life again. Feeling in control might not be such a big thing to some people, but for an alcoholic that has spent far too long allowing the bottle to dictate and control my every action....this feels incredibly liberating, and WONDERFUL!
The struggle continues every day, but now that I have proved to myself that I can be in control....I am going to do my damndest not to ever relinquish it again!
Thanks for all the support I get from you all!
Physically healthier...true, I have lost more than 28 pounds in the last 100 days.
Proud...yes I suppose, God knows this sobriety gig sure is hard work!
But I would say that what I feel most is "Control". I have control over my life again. Feeling in control might not be such a big thing to some people, but for an alcoholic that has spent far too long allowing the bottle to dictate and control my every action....this feels incredibly liberating, and WONDERFUL!
The struggle continues every day, but now that I have proved to myself that I can be in control....I am going to do my damndest not to ever relinquish it again!
Thanks for all the support I get from you all!
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Hi Dolly. Huge Kudos to you on your 100 days of sobriety. That is just awesome and you should be proud. I am looking forward to a 100 days of sobriety myself, but I have a long way to go. And yes, it is hard work, but it is also hard work drinking 24/7. I can relate to the bottle dictating all my actions (weekend warrior). I do NOT want any part of it anymore and to think I am a control freak, but can't control my weekend drinking drives me bonkers. I am committed this time and joined this forum for guidance, fellowship and accountability to stay sober this time around.
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Oh yes Serenity...the weekends I couldn't make a decision about doing anything until I evaluated if I would be able to drink at the event, and if not....did I have enough time before the event to get enough in (but not too much to appear drunk) to hold me over until said event was finished and I could get back to the sanctity of my home and my glass in the cabinet.
What a way to live huh?....so happy to be sober!
What a way to live huh?....so happy to be sober!
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I remember once, I think it was a time when I was close to 100 (3 months?), I was talking with my sponsor about it. He said something to me, and those words have stuck with me for years now. I believe it was, "boo yah!" 
That's delightful, Dollyangel. Glad to hear you're feeling a new sense of happiness and control. Thanks for sharing it. There's a lot of people on this forum I know will take it as their own inspiration.
That's delightful, Dollyangel. Glad to hear you're feeling a new sense of happiness and control. Thanks for sharing it. There's a lot of people on this forum I know will take it as their own inspiration.
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BRAVO,BIG CONGRATS ON YOUR TIME. we are so good at beating ourselves up and feeling bad its hard I know for me to acknowledge when I'm doing or feeling good..Best of luck to you and many many more days of recovery....
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