need a hug...
need a hug...
typed a whole bunch about my binging....lost it in the ethernet...you know the drill...just need to stop...have one drink and know your done....so sucks...much love to all those in the struggle...would be so cool to be able to have one drink and stop...how do they do that?
Exactly...there is no one more drink for us...all of a sudden it is 3 days later and the next 3 to 4 days are hell on earth...as an aspiring writer I thought that was cool...but after doing it for years on end I realize it is not cool...it is hell...and what you thought would be great to write about is nothing more than trying to be healthy enough to sit up right...pathetic....you have to get sober and get enough distance from the pain to be able to write about it...the bottom line is BEING SOBER....I can't do anything if I am not sober...
I have NO idea! I don't think I had one very often and when I did I was probably pissed off at the lack of effect. I drank for the feeling of ease and comfort or to numb bad feelings but never just one if I could help it. Sometimes my fiancée (who is not an alcoholic or even a heavy drinker) has one beer at night after dinner while he plays his guitar and I am fascinated by the whole thing right down to what beer he chooses and why. Haha. He likes the "craft brew" thing and like "wine tasting" it's more about the flavors or whatever - what the hell? Lol. I just wanted my shots of whatever so I could get messed up and forget whatever was going on in my head. But I'm an alcoholic. That's the difference. For whatever reason, the effect the alcohol has on me is very different and I know that so I don't have to try the "just one" thing anymore.
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
I have NO idea! I don't think I had one very often and when I did I was probably pissed off at the lack of effect. I drank for the feeling of ease and comfort or to numb bad feelings but never just one if I could help it. Sometimes my fiancée (who is not an alcoholic or even a heavy drinker) has one beer at night after dinner while he plays his guitar and I am fascinated by the whole thing right down to what beer he chooses and why. Haha. He likes the "craft brew" thing and like "wine tasting" it's more about the flavors or whatever - what the hell? Lol. I just wanted my shots of whatever so I could get messed up and forget whatever was going on in my head. But I'm an alcoholic. That's the difference. For whatever reason, the effect the alcohol has on me is very different and I know that so I don't have to try the "just one" thing anymore.
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
typed a whole bunch about my binging....lost it in the ethernet...you know the drill...just need to stop...have one drink and know your done....so sucks...much love to all those in the struggle...would be so cool to be able to have one drink and stop...how do they do that?
welcome to SR.
Thank you Dee...you saying I don't need to feel this way is beautiful...I so know it...and I'm pretty good at shutting it down...but I ******* hate wasting a day or two on it...but I still seem to do it....I dream of just not drinking...I'm going on a 16 month sabbatical...it will either be the most incredible time of my life or just a big sink hole of despair...love you
see i just poured out about 10 of a 12 pack thinking I can only have 2 more...then I see in the back of the fridge there is still 2 left from the first 12...**** me...hopeless alcoholic...normal folk would go to be and maybe have another one next weekend...I have to finish these damn things...but i probably won't...and i know if I am done after 2 more I will pour out those last 2...I am a trained alchy if nothing else...but I am probably full of **** as I type...I will probably guzzle down those last 2 before bed...
You are so right Dee...I will be, I tend to avoid this place, or anyone who is the same as me, hoping it will distance me from them and I can be normal...I have to own that I am not normal and I have to drink everything until I pass out...I guess that's not normal...love you dude...(I don't sound like I am going to stop do I?) but i will...I will...love you...thank you...
Thanks bro...I get so out of it I forget what normal people do....I do it so often I wonder if I will ever feel like a "normal person". I don't think I ever want to be one of those even when I quite drinking...sobriety does really rock the most
sobriety is the coolest state there is...I must embrace this...isn't it weird how we all know this but still find any excuse to be ****** up...I think we all must have unresolved issues...I would like to think that...but maybe we would get ****** up even if we didn't have issues...
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I understand completely! I failed a couple of weeks ago and starting over was pure hell. Sober again for 12 days and still cannot get the thoughts of how bad physically and mentally it felt those first 3 days without a drink.
One thing positive, when I am sober I wake up feeling much better. Good Luck!
One thing positive, when I am sober I wake up feeling much better. Good Luck!
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sobriety is the coolest state there is...I must embrace this...isn't it weird how we all know this but still find any excuse to be ****** up...I think we all must have unresolved issues...I would like to think that...but maybe we would get ****** up even if we didn't have issues...
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