MissingMetaphor

Ironically enough, last time I visited this site was 3 days short of a year. I keep drifting in and out of making a commitment to staying sober mostly because I can't get over a small bit of huge things I cannot understand. But here I am. Another year thrown away to booze. Time flies, I'm gonna get it right this time though

rennn

Goodluck Missingmetaphor

Me too i started yesterday im going to pick myself up dust myself off and heal myself.

I will suceed. I have learned my lesson for good this time.

Skyjumper

Welcome back!

All of the successful people in life failed many many times, but kept on trying.

Looks like you're trying again, and on your way to success! Congrats!

Dollyangel17

Welcome back! Best wishes for your continued sobriety!

Talana

As the saying goes...If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.

instant

Today is always a good time to start. Welcome back

Climber122

Good for you making the decision to try again. Your life depends on it. Just keep in mind that none of us have the power to do it alone. Just remember this crucial truth: All the willpower in the world is useless against addiciton. We win by admitting defeat. Admit to yourself that you're a garden-variety drunk like the rest of us, then get to an AA meeting and try it out. I know what I just typed may give you an bit of an uneasy feeling - it should - your addiciton wants you to keep drinking. Don't trust your own thoughts - if you do what you did before, you will get what you got before. Try a new road - admit you can't quit on your own and reach out for help! Good luck my friend, and God bless!

PaperDolls

I can SO relate to this. Somehow, someway, I finally realized that there will be huge bits of many things I will never understand so I quit wasting my energy on it. I'd say the serenity prayer applies here, for me. I'm not big on scripted prayers but that one .... that one saved my butt more times than I can count. Learning to let go of things I can't change. A tough and invaluable lesson.

I'm glad you made it back MissingMetaphor.

fini

"... mostly because I can't get over a small bit of huge things I cannot understand....."

interesting stumbling block.
you're okay with not understanding the huge things but need to "get" the one small bit?

sounds torturous.
sounds, too, like something that finds echoes in me. if i understand correctly.

and i can hang on ever so tenaciously to insisting i need to get over the little bit of the huge thing before i can....knowing how much that seems like a self-imposed set-up.
is that anything like what you're talking about, without being specific?

good to see you give it another try.

what, if anything, might you do differently this time?

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Missing. I'm relatively new here but as you know there are lots and lots of resources and great people for support here at SR. I had an initial stint of about 2 months last spring and got complacent, this time around I've dedicated a lot more time to spend here. Hopefully you can find a plan/program that works for you to keep sober, having that year under your belt was no small feat! Best of luck and stick with us.

MissingMetaphor

What I meant was that I'm quite confident in many aspects of my life, I'm able to accept lots of things I'm at fault of but there are a few things that were deeply important to me. Alcohol allowed me to believe it is priority. I was consumed by consumption and can't have back the things I lost.

Dee74

Maybe, maybe not but you can make new things MM.

Alcohol just brings loss, sooner or later - recovery is about growth and rebirth, and protecting the things precious to us by making sure they never lose their priority again.

welcome back

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