Pataphor

"Chasing the dragon"..."its never as good as the first time."

Always thought this was only for dope fiends. Nope, all inebriates it seems to me. The last few years I knew I couldn't get drunk no matter what but it didn't stop me from trying.
" it will make the movie funnier...not. Make the meal better...not."

I was trying to remember the last time it was fun....really had to dig for it. Really looking I see the last time I got so drunk i thought it was fun I immediately started seeing double and passed out. 3 seconds of fun...over a year ago, but I kept good and steady at pouring those same glasses.

am gaining more perspective with each sober day.

SDSurfn

I hear ya, Pataphor.

Yes, it stopped being fun for me too. In the end, it caused me nothing but problems, anxiety, stress.

After I realized this, I kept drinking for almost 2 more years!! I've heard it said, "I got to the end of the line, and I started laying more track."

Good for you for gaining the proper perspective.

Anna

Oh absolutely, it stops being fun but we barely notice as continue drinking. I think, after the first few months, it was never fun for me again. But, I didn't slow down or stop for a long time.

Hevyn

That was one of my biggest problems - seeking the elusive high and happy days. In my case, I had to go back decades to find them. I always thought if I could manage to just have 'a few' it might be fun again. I never knew that once you cross the line from social to alcoholic drinking there is no more fun - it becomes just a habit we refuse to break.

Good thoughts, Pataphor.

1stepup

Thanks for this thread can relate a lot.

Firstly it stopped being fun when i started drinking on my own instead of with friends,
then stopped working as the crutch id fall on to overcome stress and depression its like i 'used' up my share of fun alcohol then 'used' up my share of pain relief alcohol- if that makes sense?

Liza

Total sense!!!

Liza

This s*** is hard!!!!!

Liza

You are so much more than the worst thing you've
ever done. - Fr. Gregory Boyle, Homeboy Industries

Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it well and serenely, and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. - Emerson



Love this!!!!

vegibean

Totally get that too. I have been thinking a lot lately, I wish people could/would give sobriety a good chance. I know some people are going through really hard stuff when trying to get sober (I was years ago, it was hard!!), but being sober and feeling good, I wonder "why do I want to feel sh*tty??" Ugh!!

It stopped being fun a long time ago and it doesn't get any better.