Threshold

In early recovery I found myself often asking myself "is it worth it?"

I mean, life didn't turn into peaches and cream. I felt let down, even cheated. Like "I got clean for THIS?" but a little but persistent voice (much of it in the form of SR) kept reminding me that I got clean for ME. ME was going to be better, even if outside circumstances didn't follow suit. I didn't get clean to change the world. I got clean to change me.

So, a year and some change clean, and just shy of a year sober...sometimes I still find myself asking "is it worth it?" But these days that question is aimed at the booze, drugs, food, and foolish relationships I used to indulge in. Yeah, sometimes I think about/get tempted to "go there"...but I ask myself "is it worth it?". Do I want to give up my peace of mind for that?

That is a very significant change for me, that 180. With clean time, with recovery a different perspective DOES grow.

I have developed the ability to stop, step back, take a look, and make a decision, where I used to be compulsive, obsessive, and out of control!

Indulging in my addictions is NOT worth it. Turning towards a life of freedom IS worth it. That's one important thing I've learned in my first year clean.

Jimuk

Threshold, that's awesome. I often ask the same question, then stumble and fall before I can answer. Thank you for your words of inspiration

instant

Power on brother, rebuilding takes time.

In the end I came to think of one year as early. Year two brings more changes, but my long history of dysfunction has left a lot of growing to do, but it does happen

Dee74

Thanks for that post Threshold - and congratulations!

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Nonsensical

Very well said.

Mvngon

Thanks for putting this out there. I think that this was just what I needed to read today. Funny how things sometimes come to you at just the perfect time. Congratulations and best to you!

LoftyIdeals

Congrats, Threshold! Your posts are inspiring.

RobbyRobot

Awesome share, Threshold. You've really changed up your game in the last year, its been beautiful to see it all happen, even though you've shared really sad and tuff times, you've always shared you're path and experiences thru those challenges. You're a great example of doing it right and getting it done. Thanks for the inspiration. I've always felt you have great expertise with grinding out workable solutions to critical mental health / emotional challenges. It can be a delicate balance sometimes for any of us, and from my own background, no less of course for me either.

paul99

Great share - very groovy

Thanks for that - made my day.

CalliePlonker

Wonderful words ... I'm on day 2 - shakey and my mind is wondering back to 'oh Callie have a glass of wine - life is wonderful when you do' and your words have reminded me NOT IT ISNT OK CALLIE FOR YOU TO HAVE A GLASS OF WINE'. I do not want to continue living this life which is controlled by alcohol. Freedom is what I want and your words have just given me a kick up the bum again. Thank you and congratulations!

ReadyAtLast

Congrats on 1 year-that's fabulous

soberlicious

So wonderful to read Threshold. I personally think you rock.

FBL

Congrats and thanks for sharing!

ClearLight

Wow - that's a good post. Very inspiring for a day one guy like me.

Kat60

Thank you for that Threshold!

hypochondriac

That's so true. I would never have believed it early on. I think it is so easy to think that what you feel at that moment in time will be how it is forever but things do get so much better

Congratulations and a massive thank you for all your inspiring posts

Jeni26

Threshold, you inspire me and many others. Well done on your year of sobriety, that is awesome xx