Day 1 .....
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Day 1 .....
Well here I am again .... Day 1. Had a huge panic attack this morning and I simply cannot keep drinking. I HAVE to stop!! But how???? Everything I do I associate with drinking ..... how on earth do I start this battle but more importantly how do I win this?? Everyday I'm poisoning myself.... 
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Well, you've make a positive step in coming here. There are a lot of qualified people that will be more than willing to help you out. It sounds like you've made the decision to stop drinking and that is the first of many steps.
There are several options available and as you read some of the posts you will learn a bit about each of them. Then you need to decide which one you want to make work for you.
You can win this battle.
There are several options available and as you read some of the posts you will learn a bit about each of them. Then you need to decide which one you want to make work for you.
You can win this battle.
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Thank you everyone for your quick responses! I'm 30 - would say I've struggled with alcohol for about 8 years. I must ahve greadually started drinking more and more and now I find I can't stop. I dont ver drink in the AM - the craving usually start about 4pm. I've also had 2 pretty hard relationships and have always suffered low self esteem ... so the alcohol gave me the confidence to do things I usually wouldnt do. But once I start ... I can't stop....... sighs .... I just keep saying to myself .. how on earth did I end up in this mess?!?!
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I am just like you Callie. I don't think I have a problem until I start drinking and can't stop! But that is an issue. I've also used it as a crutch for self esteem issues but now I realise drinking just masks that and doesn't make the issue go away. There must be healthier ways of doing it. I just need to figure out what they are!
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Hugs to you Lizella .... it's a bloody nightmare isnt it! So frustrating NOT wanting to drink and still ending up drinking .... I somehow have to stop though as I know the panic attacks are due to drinking too much ...it makes me so sick - I wonder what damage Ive done to myself 
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Hi callie, I'm also ok-ish but as soon as I have one beer that's it, next stop, vomiting, blackouts and general chaos. I have 10 years on you my friend don't waste another decade of your life to this cycle of destruction. It's great that you have made steps to be here.
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Hi Jim, pleasure to meet you. Thank you very much for your response and kind words. It's so reassuring to have this support and understanding ... its hard to explain to people who dont have the same addiction x
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Have you seen the February class for daily support, I just joined yesterday they are a friendly bunch - also there is a 30 day and under class for more great support plus loads of advice here. Hang around and read awhile. X
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