Pamel

Enough already. My life been wasted in large parts by drinking ; maybe it's time for a change? I think I will make 2.13.13 my first sober day (in a lot of years) ...and for ME, no one else. Time already.

I have spent most of my life revolving around booze, and I would like the rest of what's left to be spent on others: friends, family, people in much more need than I.

Sheesh!! What a waste. I dunno, maybe it was meant to be?....

Coldfusion

What a relief!

Thanks Pamel.

Don't you feel better already?

weirdesttoner

I know you can't do that right now, but please consider having a positive thinking about this. Afterall, you already made your mind, you already decided to do this for yourself. U should feel relieved!
I'm just 2 days ahead of you, i made this decision on sunday night.
Best wishes, Pam!

Dee74

sounds like a good idea Pamel - do you have a plan?

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ABIDEBYLAW

I am with you, giving it up for Lent, and hopefully longer. Starting right now since I work tonight. Good luck!

Lavender520

Pamel well done on making that decision!

vegibean

Pamel, what a great post!!

Don't be too hard on yourself, consider it a lesson and a tool for which you can use in the future as you build yourself up. Be grateful for every day because when you are truly sober you realize how good things are, even when they're bad.

Congrats Pamel, and keep coming back for support, you've got mine!!

mytime66

Welcome. And most importantly, your going to really appreciate this decision. Make a plan an stick to it.

AM9610

Good for you, Pamel!

I'll never forget what someone said to me at my very first AA meeting: "You've had all the fun you'll ever have from drinking!" Somehow I think he was right, and I will pass that along to you.

We're here for you!

Kat60

Good for you Pamel ~ you can do this!

neway55

What a great post.
I'll add that to what I tell myself everyday.

kizzy40

Best decision ever

Fitness1234

I am on the same date! Let's do this!

Kat60

Yay to wino1234 too :-)

Pamel

Thanks everyone. Yes, plans are in place: AA meetings 90 in 90 (OMG again...), a VERY good sponsor, a therapist to whom I can rant about life's issues.

So it is Day 2! Yay!!!

ReadyAndAble

Congrats—you're on your way to some very good things!

Pamel

Yes, day 3 is almost over, thank goodness. I still don't know if I will have a marriage (husband has been through too many of these things), but what will be will be.

I have a great sponsor who will not discuss anything except about how I am going to stay sober, and a great therapist who listens to all the other ranting. Lots of AA being thrown in there too, and reading, and all the stuff I have done so many times...

I do think I hit bottom this time (step 1 today). No more "reverse boy scout badges to acquire" except jail? death?

Things are very tense around here tonight as husband has to deal with the mess created by his son with their family, and as he is none too happy with me... so I am no solace.

Well I feel EXTREMELY grateful for this site and all I mentioned above.

FreeFall

Good for you Pamel-you're making a huge step in the right direction. I think when we first quit we look back and cringe at how much drinking was a part of our lives-we feel like we wasted so much time. Once you have some time under your belt you'll be able to look back and realize it wasn't your only focus, and see it more in balance. Just try to live for today, and don't pick up a drink today. It can be really simple.