snowbal

Hi everyone. Day 1 - this is not going well

Tamerua

You can do this!

snowbal

I can't stop shaking. Or getting sick

terribob

If you're shaking an/or getting sick you probably want to see a medical professional. You can do this, but you don't have to be a hero.

Camperboy

would this time of day be a typical time that you would be drinking alcohol?
(assuming you are in the time zone where this is morning)

Daisy1981

your in alcohol withdrawl, have you got someone with you cos it's not advised to stop drinking without medication. depends how much you drank before today x

snowbal

It's half two in the afternoon here. Any time is a time I start drinking. This weekend was particularly bad. I lost two days, just staying in my bedroom drinking, 8 bottles of wine later I guess explains the shakes/sickness

whiskeyman

if there are any symptoms at all, dont play with your life go to the dr or hospital.
i thought i was doing well and on day 4 i was rushed to the hospital.
please dont play roulette. people love you and want you with them.

doggonecarl

Welcome to SR.

Detox is serious. I second those saying get to a doctor. Do you have someone to take you?

It would be helpful if you could get something from the doctor to ease you through withdrawals, else you are going to turn to the poison that brought you hear in the first place.

In the meantime, stay connected to SR. What's your story?

snowbal

Thank you for the welcome.

I've always drank but drinking at home only started four years ago when I was made redundant. I'm back working now, and also in college. My drinking has just got out of control. It was one bottle a night, now it's three to four. I guess I've tried to hide it so much that I'm now totally isolated from everyone. I have a boyfriend, but is too furious to want anything to do with me. He had to take time off last week to drive me to college to hand in a paper. I haven't been attending college, now they are saying it is too late for me to catch up and I am not going to pass my final year. I have been lying to myself, saying that I can get it under control, only limit myself to two drinks a night, and all that other crap. I am so scared, this has cost me everything. My family don't want to know anymore, and I have no friends left. And now it looks like my degree will be gone too. And worst of all, I am going to lose my boyfriend.

Camperboy

8 bottles of wine later?
Yeah, a doctors appointment for today is the answer as opposed to getting back into the sauce to relieve the nasy withdrawls you must be going through

Hevyn

Welcome snowbal. I'm so glad you reached out for help and support.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain, but here is where it can end. Over my 30 year drinking career I behaved the same way as you - but I didn't even try to quit at your age. At least you're recognizing that alcohol is threatening your life, and everything important to you. There is a way out. We're so happy to have you here - this place helped save my life. Please keep talking to us.

doggonecarl

snowbal, take a deep breath. Sobriety and the changes required are scary enough without adding to the stress. You won't lose your degree, right? Those credits are with you forever. You can get better and pick up right where you left off. As for your boyfriend, who knows where that will end. But it can only get better if you recover. And you can only recover if you focus on YOU, and not on what you did in the past that brought you here.

This is a brand new start. Leave the baggage at the door.

SSIL75

God I can conjure up the feelings so well.

Is rehab an option? Or a detox at least?

I think most of us know exactly how you are feeling. It's gut-wrenching on all fronts.

There is a lovely life to be had. I know you probably can't imagine it now but trust me, please.

snowbal

Thank you all for your support.

Tears have stopped and the throwing up for the moment, and another hour down.

No rehab isn't an option. Without work I would lose my house, car, and with the nature of my work, and where I live, if this gets out I will lose my job too.

I'm going to try and eat something, any ideas on what might stay down please ?

doggonecarl

Your drinking may do that for you before your recovery does...just saying.

Drink plenty of water to replace fluids. Try a broth or a broth-based soup.

Stay strong!

CanKicker

Snowbal, soup and crackers if you have any. I couldn't finish the whole can in a day. I just had a little at a time. Whatever I thought would stay down. Also, keep the biggest glass you have filled with ice water by your bed and make yourself drink as much as possible.

Daisy1981

Good luck snowball and remember if your symptoms get worse go see your doctor xx

Mafalda

Could this be alcohol poisoning ? If you can't keep anything down that means you can't drink alcohol either. I remember the few times I binged I was shaking and shivering and felt like I had the worst flu in the world. It turns out it was alcohol poisoning not withdrawal symptoms. I drink coconut water to replace potassium and natural electrolytes.

Sasha4

It's going to be okay.

Just get through these symptoms - but be safe and call for medical help if you need it. Deep down, I think you need it.

The family, the degree, the job, the boyfriend can wait.
You just need to get over this.
Don't think too much, just focus on your physical health.

Keep checking in here and let us know you are still hanging on.
We worry!
Nothing you say can shock u we have read it all before.

Could you call a friend, the AA hotline or someone to come be with you?

Know that we are rooting for you and we care and we understand xxxx