Nothings worked...lets try this on for size...
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Nothings worked...lets try this on for size...
Hi. I uhhh never joined a chat forum before. I frequent a MMA forums but this is one I NEED to be apart of.
Feeling tense, nervous, all those hangover symptoms. But ohhh man, I have really done it this time. I finally ended up reading some key terms:agoraphobia, auditory hallucinations and yeah I drank all day my last two days off and I am slightly feeling these. And I am at work!
3 dwis, no true friends, my coworkers are getting worried this has to stop right NOW!
Its easy going work I have, the most stress-free job I have ever had and I am %100 uncomfortable right now. Oh, I turned it up to eleven this time. Just any words of comfort to get me started thanks to anyone reading.
Feeling tense, nervous, all those hangover symptoms. But ohhh man, I have really done it this time. I finally ended up reading some key terms:agoraphobia, auditory hallucinations and yeah I drank all day my last two days off and I am slightly feeling these. And I am at work!
3 dwis, no true friends, my coworkers are getting worried this has to stop right NOW!
Its easy going work I have, the most stress-free job I have ever had and I am %100 uncomfortable right now. Oh, I turned it up to eleven this time. Just any words of comfort to get me started thanks to anyone reading.
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Welcome Nevar! I was desperate and miserable when I joined here, too. I found so much support & encouragement here that I was able to stop - and stay stopped for almost 5 yrs. now. We know you can do it. Glad to have you part of the family.
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Originally Posted by Sasha4 
Welcome - lots of friends here to make if you want to stick around!
Is MMA - moderation management?
Is MMA - moderation management?
I REALLY should stick around. It felt reassuring to write out everything I was feeling in the current moment. I had a hard time finding anything that clicked when I attended AA, my Grandfather (50 yrs+) sober is influential at times then I would just "unlearn" all his recommendations.
During my break I thought of tonight and potentially being drunk, alone in my place again. It's the most juvenille, pathetic mental picture and i'm the star. Stopping at the gas station before going home? I can't, please i can't.
And MMA = mixed martial arts.
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Welcome. I'm an MMA fan as well, GSP, Hamill and Bisping are my fav fighters.
SR is a nice community that is filled with many members who have years and years of sobriety under their belts.
Much can be learned.
For me, it started with my life crumbling around me, I was fortunate to have a moment of clarity and then I made a choice to put the bottle down and seek help.
SR is a nice community that is filled with many members who have years and years of sobriety under their belts.
Much can be learned.
For me, it started with my life crumbling around me, I was fortunate to have a moment of clarity and then I made a choice to put the bottle down and seek help.
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[QUOTE=NevarCiots;3714045]I REALLY should stick around. It felt reassuring to write out everything I was feeling in the current moment.
During my break I thought of tonight and potentially being drunk, alone in my place again. It's the most juvenille, pathetic mental picture and i'm the star. Stopping at the gas station before going home? I can't, please i can't.
So stay here.
Go home, keep reading and posting, avoid the gas station and think of the massive smile you will have on your face in the morning when you wake up and you have done a night with no booze!!
Just one night and no drink. You can do that I know you can.
During my break I thought of tonight and potentially being drunk, alone in my place again. It's the most juvenille, pathetic mental picture and i'm the star. Stopping at the gas station before going home? I can't, please i can't.
So stay here.
Go home, keep reading and posting, avoid the gas station and think of the massive smile you will have on your face in the morning when you wake up and you have done a night with no booze!!
Just one night and no drink. You can do that I know you can.
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Originally Posted by Xune
Welcome. I'm an MMA fan as well, GSP, Hamill and Bisping are my fav fighters.
SR is a nice community that is filled with many members who have years and years of sobriety under their belts.
Much can be learned.
For me, it started with my life crumbling around me, I was fortunate to have a moment of clarity and then I made a choice to put the bottle down and seek help.
SR is a nice community that is filled with many members who have years and years of sobriety under their belts.
Much can be learned.
For me, it started with my life crumbling around me, I was fortunate to have a moment of clarity and then I made a choice to put the bottle down and seek help.
That life crumbling around me feeling I hate that. That feeling happened after every single aggrivated dui. I scare myself seeing as those should have been my rock bottom moments but still.. I need to smarten up quick, pay attention or I might for sure see even WORSE (example: 4th dui = prison) yeeeesshh...
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Welcome to SR N. Ciots,
I wasn't able to quit for girlfriends, coworkers, and def. not the State. Not for long, anyway.
Only when I reached out for help ; ....for me.
SR helped beyond anything early on. This and some Face to face meetings.
You'll see many of us have taken different paths.
Do you have a plan to get sober ?
I wasn't able to quit for girlfriends, coworkers, and def. not the State. Not for long, anyway.
Only when I reached out for help ; ....for me.
SR helped beyond anything early on. This and some Face to face meetings.
You'll see many of us have taken different paths.
Do you have a plan to get sober ?
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I loved AA meetings. I would get days and days of sobriety and I didn't feel like I relapse drinking in between meetings every now and then.
But I had a vehicle (with an ignition interlock) and it was easy to get to meetings. But since October I lost my license, got my truck towed and it is having vehicle problems. I just decided oh well to meetings and started drinking everyday...again.
Today I have chosen to go start small, get my license and stop screwing around with my health. Withdraw symptoms are getting too crazy and affecting my work performance.
But I had a vehicle (with an ignition interlock) and it was easy to get to meetings. But since October I lost my license, got my truck towed and it is having vehicle problems. I just decided oh well to meetings and started drinking everyday...again.
Today I have chosen to go start small, get my license and stop screwing around with my health. Withdraw symptoms are getting too crazy and affecting my work performance.
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