In Rage - Crack Addict Husband Is Toxic For My Life
This is my first time posting to this forum, so I chose to post a thread to the Newcomers Forum, however, I have been dealing with his addiction for two years, and I feel that I am well versed in the psychological and physical aspects of both co-dependency and addiction.
I am currently unemployed and, as a result, am caught between a rock and a hard place with my husband. My home in unsafe. He is volatile and completely unstable. While I am unemployed, I still feel that I am bearing the load of the bills, as he has gotten to a point where he smokes his paycheck, and lays in bed depressed unwilling to work as a result of his decisions. We are breaking even, but tools get pawned and bought back on the weekends. Quite frankly, I am in a state of rage nearly all of the time. And I can't move on right now.
I have the potential of making a really good salary, way more than enough to support myself when I receive my first pay check. As for now, I can't couch hop from one place to another because that would leave me completely un-grounded. I can get up in the morning at home and at least look for jobs. My clothes are here, all of my belongings. It's just too much to deal with all at once. I was laid off from my job just a few weeks after I found out that he started using again.
What I am looking for on here is confirmation that moving out and getting into a safe environment is what I really need to do. I'm not abandoning my marriage, but I simply can't live with a crack addict, especially when I don't use drugs or alcohol at all.
Love and light.