Rayay

My name is Ray, I don't know where to start. I drank for most of my life and drank myself into a state of psychosis. I quit drinking for about six months and felt so much better, I started having real relationships with people, and was really proud of my sobriety. Then in July I hit the bottle hard and in the matter of days was right back where I was before I quit. The new relationships I had made fell apart, because of my drinking, I wish I hadn't fallen off the wagon. Now I am sober and have been for a week, it just seems like a lot to do. Taking control of my life, in the six months I was sober I made a lot of positive steps, to do it all over aging seems daunting. I guess it is a lesson to keep in mind and help me stay sober. The real sad part is when I tell people I don't drink anymore, they laugh, I guess they have heard it all before.

24hrsatatime

rayay I hope all works out well for you. I personally have never used alcohol as my drug of choice, but I have no doubt that it is an addiction just like drug addiction. I use 12 step support groups to help me in my recovery. I can guarantee they won't laugh at you there when you say you've stopped. You're right, if your problem was anything like mine, the important people in my life have heard me say "I'm done with this" and "I'm sorry" a few too many times for my words to mean much, at least when I started a year ago. By working the NA program, I am starting to get that trust back because the people around me can see a difference in me. I do what I say I will now.

Try to get into some type of support group in the real world. Internet forums, chats, etc. are great, but they don't replace the value of face to face human interaction. Good luck and God Bless You

soulgypsy

Hi Ray. Welcome to SR. Long-term sobriety is hard for many of us but we will all get through this. I wish blessed dreams for you tonight.

nonblondechef

Remember how good you were feeling. You can get that back, one day at a time. And that old adage may come into play here for those you tell you don't drink anymore - actions speak louder than words. You can do this - Welcome to SR - we are rooting for you, Ray!!

artsoul

Welcome Rayay -

Way to go on getting through the first week. This is a great place to come when you need some inspiration or support.

Remember that it took you 6 months to get to where you were before, so just take it a day at a time and you'll get there.

Wayne444

I am in the exact same position as you. I quit 6 months ago, was feeling more confident and strong as I have in years and I blew it in July as well in a huge way. I am paying the consequences. I completely understand the anguish.

It does seem daunting and right now I am just gutting it out literally hour by hour. Today I managed to get a glimpse of how I will be again soon. Remembered how good I felt and how good everyone felt about me. They don't feel as good about me right now but I'm just doing everything in my power - moving constantly, to try to make things right.

We former 6 month sober guys can do it again and forever. I just know that if I start drinking again I will lose everything. I'm still trying to keep what I have, what hopefully isn't lost from my July binge. Man, is it not worth it. Not even close.

Let's just try to keep remembering how good we felt and work our way back for good.

Dee74

welcome aboard Ray

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