two weeks ago...
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two weeks ago...
i had my last drink.
the recent traumatic events in my life were enough to bring down the strongest of the strongest. add a bit of a alcohol to the mix and i had a perfect a recipe for a real disaster. for a shot while i was having a little to drink, just to numb the horrid feelings and thoughts. then the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back fell... and i went on a bender, like never before. just didn't care, wanted to disappear, guess i felt like my life was no longer worth living.
well... somebody up there must be watching over me, because somehow i was able to snap out of it. i had to sacrifice a lot of great things to get better. there was no option to "tough it out" this time. i had to leave my job (this decision is still weighting me down), because otherwise i would never break the cycle and the consequences would be much, much worse than a temporary loss of a paycheck...
today i cannot say that i am very happy, but i am hopeful. life is worth living again and i believe in the brighter future.
i'm very thankful for the support of my friends and family. thankful that i didn't hurt anyone or myself. thankful that tomorrow my sobriety will outlast my relapse. thankful to everyone here on SR. thankful that i can run for two miles rather than crawling two feet to the bathroom. thankful that i am finding strength to dig myself out of this emotional hole and move forward.
the recent traumatic events in my life were enough to bring down the strongest of the strongest. add a bit of a alcohol to the mix and i had a perfect a recipe for a real disaster. for a shot while i was having a little to drink, just to numb the horrid feelings and thoughts. then the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back fell... and i went on a bender, like never before. just didn't care, wanted to disappear, guess i felt like my life was no longer worth living.
well... somebody up there must be watching over me, because somehow i was able to snap out of it. i had to sacrifice a lot of great things to get better. there was no option to "tough it out" this time. i had to leave my job (this decision is still weighting me down), because otherwise i would never break the cycle and the consequences would be much, much worse than a temporary loss of a paycheck...
today i cannot say that i am very happy, but i am hopeful. life is worth living again and i believe in the brighter future.
i'm very thankful for the support of my friends and family. thankful that i didn't hurt anyone or myself. thankful that tomorrow my sobriety will outlast my relapse. thankful to everyone here on SR. thankful that i can run for two miles rather than crawling two feet to the bathroom. thankful that i am finding strength to dig myself out of this emotional hole and move forward.
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