soberred

It has been an extremely tough week. BF and I are not speaking to each other and when we do, it's a screaming match. I work at an acute care hospital so you can imagine how stressful that could be. But my job is not stressing me out. I can't wait to go to work to get away from the term-oil. As soon as I leave work, I get a terrible dread feeling in the pit of my stomach. I am a nervous wreck at home. I have had so many urges to escape this week. I am fighting it off but it is most difficult. I want to get through this.

Charon

Maybe it's time for a "time out" from the relationship. That kind of stress is good for neither of you nor for the relationship. Is there somewhere you could go for a few days or a week, just to get away and let things settle down? If not could the BF give you some space by going somewhere?

soberred

Yes. I have a friend waiting for me to get up enough strength to leave. It's hard. It hurts.

Sapling

It can't be any harder than this.

sugarbear1

Try whispering instead of yelling. It's hard to do, but it might help a little until you decide to love you enough to know your situation isn't conducive to loving yourself. You have a long history with him. Maybe it is time to move on. Something you need to come to terms with.

Glad work is not stressful. That is where you shine!

OCDDan

oops, nevermind